You have such amazing insight. You are spot on that I am a mirror showing him what he does not want to see. I did try staying with a friend - and ended up being totally miserable away from my things and area. I could not work from home, had no internet or e-mail access etc and on top of it my friend became quite demanding after a few days. My husband was upset that I left to stay there and tried everything including the usual promises to get me not to go, but as he had been treating me really badly for weeks I decided enough was enough and that I would move out, first to a friend then my own place. Suddenly, the rental market produced only dirty places and I could find nowhere suitable where I could live happily. Also, one of my really big clients lost a lot of money and could not pay my outstanding fees of the last few months and I was dumped into a situation where I have no cash flow. Also, the rest of my friends all have excuses as to why I cannot stay with them.
But, last night I decided that in a way I am all I have now. I am going to tell him today that I will from now on ignore him like does with me. I am going to explain that even though he is trying to blame me as a person and everything that I am for his sudden loss of love for me, he is the one who killed our marriage with his selfish ways. He did not keep a single one of our marriage vows. How can love survive and a marriage work when a partner has no respect for his mate and tries to bend her to his ways with no freedom? Nevermind. I just want him to know that the tears and softness are at an end now. He is dead to me. I'll wait here in this house quietly doing my work (as I have finally stopped crying and trying) until I can find a place to stay.
I don't know from which country you are but here it is no 7 am. Please know that in the last 24 hours you have beena lifeline to me. I was no longer functional or able to reach out to anyone I know. I was no longer making contact with the divine either. Thank you for taking the time to read my posts and responding. I will never forget your wise words of encouragement. I am truly grateful that there are people like you out there. If my husband had 10% of your insight we would have made it.
Hope you have a great day. I am going to have to try to work today if I want to make that looming deadline!
You have such amazing insight. You are spot on that I am a mirror showing him what he does not want to see. I did try staying with a friend - and ended up being totally miserable away from my things and area. I could not work from home, had no internet or e-mail access etc and on top of it my friend became quite demanding after a few days. My husband was upset that I left to stay there and tried everything including the usual promises to get me not to go, but as he had been treating me really badly for weeks I decided enough was enough and that I would move out, first to a friend then my own place. Suddenly, the rental market produced only dirty places and I could find nowhere suitable where I could live happily. Also, one of my really big clients lost a lot of money and could not pay my outstanding fees of the last few months and I was dumped into a situation where I have no cash flow. Also, the rest of my friends all have excuses as to why I cannot stay with them.
But, last night I decided that in a way I am all I have now. I am going to tell him today that I will from now on ignore him like does with me. I am going to explain that even though he is trying to blame me as a person and everything that I am for his sudden loss of love for me, he is the one who killed our marriage with his selfish ways. He did not keep a single one of our marriage vows. How can love survive and a marriage work when a partner has no respect for his mate and tries to bend her to his ways with no freedom? Nevermind. I just want him to know that the tears and softness are at an end now. He is dead to me. I'll wait here in this house quietly doing my work (as I have finally stopped crying and trying) until I can find a place to stay.
I don't know from which country you are but here it is no 7 am. Please know that in the last 24 hours you have beena lifeline to me. I was no longer functional or able to reach out to anyone I know. I was no longer making contact with the divine either. Thank you for taking the time to read my posts and responding. I will never forget your wise words of encouragement. I am truly grateful that there are people like you out there. If my husband had 10% of your insight we would have made it.
Hope you have a great day. I am going to have to try to work today if I want to make that looming deadline!
Thanks again
Catie