Since I'm a teacher, I'm off for the summer. I know I am very fortunate to have this luxury. My son went to his father's house for a month, so I have the house to myself (other than my pack of wayward dogs). I chose to spend some quality time alone. I really needed time to just be.
I decided to catch up on some of my favorite activities. I rented movies that I've been wanting to watch, had a sinful pleasure of a marathon run of renting the series Weeds and watching the entire 3 seasons. I read an entire book in just a few days, relaxed at the beach, walks on my favorite nature trail, sleeping in, and a big breakfast or lunch. These are my simple pleasures.
I didn't realize how really exhausted and stressed out I have been. Once I allowed myself to let go and relax I noticed how tightly wound up I am. I feel like a kitten unraveling a big ball of yarn. It seems we carry so much anxiety in our physical and emotional bodies that the result is an over active brain and a body that is filled with tension.
I know how blessed I am to have the entire summer off. I realize not everyone has this privilege, so I really need to appreciate and utilize the time that I have. People ask me what my plans for the summer are. I really don't have any. Just having the opportunity to spend time with myself, friends, family and my dogs and making time to do fun and relaxing things.
I am taking the time to reflect on my life and what matters. Setting the course for the months to come. I am really happy to be writing again. I am honored that you are interested in what I have to say. I think we all have our creative expression, it just takes getting quiet, centered and focused to allow the venue to come forth. I plan on making more and more time to read and write.
I'm also feeling extremely introverted. I am having a really difficult time being around people and being in public places. It is almost painful to go out. Too much activity or noise completely overwhelms my nervous system. It feels that now is the time to stay in so I'm honoring that. It has become increasingly difficult to even talk. It seems my heart is talking but my voice doesn't want to. Now is my opportunity to meditate and pray. I'm listening to what I need and following my intuition. I'm using Bach Flower Essences, Young Living Essential Oils, and Alchemical Mage Potions to assist me in balancing and releasing.
In all reality, what I am doing is allowing myself to just be. If we don't take the time to slow down and get to know ourselves how will we know what brings us happiness and joy, or alternatively, what brings us anxiety and stress? Not everyone has an entire summer to do this process but weekends, evenings and vacations can be utilized.
I know our lives are busy, hectic, and filled with obligations and responsibilities. Sometimes we have to let something go to make room for our souls to flourish. My house hasn't been the cleanest or most organized. I have put to the back burner many things that aren't the priority. Right now, I'm the priority. It's just that simple.
I can feel the true me developing in the cocoon. I know one day I will be wiggling my way out. I know that when that day comes, I will be ready to be the butterfly that will soar. So for now, I am content to wait and ponder. I am allowing the process to unfold. This is a sacred time for all of us.
Our true gifts and talents are being shown to us. We just need to slow down and pay attention to see what is there. We are creating our lives and realities with our thoughts and actions. So during this process of manifestation, allow yourself to just "be". Give yourself room to grow and discover. In the meantime, do what feels good.
We are in a time of intense anxiety, fear, frustration and uncertainty. There is very little we can do to change things right now. What we can do, is take care of ourselves and find inner peace. We express our creativity, through the authentic expression of our Souls. The only way we can be in complete alignment is really knowing who we are and what we want. The way to know this is by taking the time to discover it.
I look forward to the opportunity for us to fly together... flapping our butterfly wings, showing off the magnificent colors we radiate, enjoying the nectar from the most beautiful, succulent flowers, and being who we truly are.
Prayer
Time to "Be"
Spirit, here I am. I show up on this day as you would have me be. I do not have the desire to be anything other than that which I already am.
I don't have a direction for my life right now. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be doing and really there is nothing much I feel like doing anyway.
As I quiet my mind and allow things to be I feel myself coming into direct alignment with You. I feel I'm easing into peacefulness and harmony. I like this feeling. I am content.
At this time, I choose to stay inward. I trust everything is in Divine order. I savor this moment, as it is. I accept this gift of rest and rejuvenation. I allow myself to experience enjoyment.
God, please further assist me in coming into alignment. Please guide my process of unwinding. I am so used to be-ing tense that I am not sure how to let go. My desire is to connect with my essence. Please illuminate the way.
Notes to Myself
Since I'm a teacher, I'm off for the summer. I know I am very fortunate to have this luxury. My son went to his father's house for a month, so I have the house to myself (other than my pack of wayward dogs). I chose to spend some quality time alone. I really needed time to just be.
I decided to catch up on some of my favorite activities. I rented movies that I've been wanting to watch, had a sinful pleasure of a marathon run of renting the series Weeds and watching the entire 3 seasons. I read an entire book in just a few days, relaxed at the beach, walks on my favorite nature trail, sleeping in, and a big breakfast or lunch. These are my simple pleasures.
I didn't realize how really exhausted and stressed out I have been. Once I allowed myself to let go and relax I noticed how tightly wound up I am. I feel like a kitten unraveling a big ball of yarn. It seems we carry so much anxiety in our physical and emotional bodies that the result is an over active brain and a body that is filled with tension.
I know how blessed I am to have the entire summer off. I realize not everyone has this privilege, so I really need to appreciate and utilize the time that I have. People ask me what my plans for the summer are. I really don't have any. Just having the opportunity to spend time with myself, friends, family and my dogs and making time to do fun and relaxing things.
I am taking the time to reflect on my life and what matters. Setting the course for the months to come. I am really happy to be writing again. I am honored that you are interested in what I have to say. I think we all have our creative expression, it just takes getting quiet, centered and focused to allow the venue to come forth. I plan on making more and more time to read and write.
I'm also feeling extremely introverted. I am having a really difficult time being around people and being in public places. It is almost painful to go out. Too much activity or noise completely overwhelms my nervous system. It feels that now is the time to stay in so I'm honoring that. It has become increasingly difficult to even talk. It seems my heart is talking but my voice doesn't want to. Now is my opportunity to meditate and pray. I'm listening to what I need and following my intuition. I'm using Bach Flower Essences, Young Living Essential Oils, and Alchemical Mage Potions to assist me in balancing and releasing.
In all reality, what I am doing is allowing myself to just be. If we don't take the time to slow down and get to know ourselves how will we know what brings us happiness and joy, or alternatively, what brings us anxiety and stress? Not everyone has an entire summer to do this process but weekends, evenings and vacations can be utilized.
I know our lives are busy, hectic, and filled with obligations and responsibilities. Sometimes we have to let something go to make room for our souls to flourish. My house hasn't been the cleanest or most organized. I have put to the back burner many things that aren't the priority. Right now, I'm the priority. It's just that simple.
I can feel the true me developing in the cocoon. I know one day I will be wiggling my way out. I know that when that day comes, I will be ready to be the butterfly that will soar. So for now, I am content to wait and ponder. I am allowing the process to unfold. This is a sacred time for all of us.
Our true gifts and talents are being shown to us. We just need to slow down and pay attention to see what is there. We are creating our lives and realities with our thoughts and actions. So during this process of manifestation, allow yourself to just "be". Give yourself room to grow and discover. In the meantime, do what feels good.
We are in a time of intense anxiety, fear, frustration and uncertainty. There is very little we can do to change things right now. What we can do, is take care of ourselves and find inner peace. We express our creativity, through the authentic expression of our Souls. The only way we can be in complete alignment is really knowing who we are and what we want. The way to know this is by taking the time to discover it.
I look forward to the opportunity for us to fly together... flapping our butterfly wings, showing off the magnificent colors we radiate, enjoying the nectar from the most beautiful, succulent flowers, and being who we truly are.
Prayer
Time to "Be"
Spirit, here I am. I show up on this day as you would have me be. I do not have the desire to be anything other than that which I already am.
I don't have a direction for my life right now. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be doing and really there is nothing much I feel like doing anyway.
As I quiet my mind and allow things to be I feel myself coming into direct alignment with You. I feel I'm easing into peacefulness and harmony. I like this feeling. I am content.
At this time, I choose to stay inward. I trust everything is in Divine order. I savor this moment, as it is. I accept this gift of rest and rejuvenation. I allow myself to experience enjoyment.
God, please further assist me in coming into alignment. Please guide my process of unwinding. I am so used to be-ing tense that I am not sure how to let go. My desire is to connect with my essence. Please illuminate the way.
I take a deep breath and relax.
And so it is.
Amen.