Re: sorry for all the grief i caused mariu and everyone else
Bryan,
As I am reading this, there are tears in my eyes. I could tell from some of your posts that you were in pain and angry...but you just took it too far. People were trying to reach out to you, relate to you, find some common ground, and you lashed out at all/most of us. Not everyone who is seeking and have found this site are fluffy and "new-agey"as you assumed that we were. I too have had my dark days....so I do think I understood, on some level, what you were trying to express. But you need to give other people some respect, for trying to lift others up during these times, or report what they are "getting" via a channel, higher self, or whomever. Or for just being who they are. From this post, I would say, please don't give up yet...from what I have read... a lot of people tend to give up right before a break through is made or "success" is near.
If you could shift your focus to gratitude in just one way, each day, say for how wonderful kids and dogs are to you, maybe there will be a change for you. I don't know...just take one step in front of the other, like the rest of us.
Also, Namaste isn't new-age either, it basically means "the light in me sees the light in you"...and it has been used in India for a long time...so you could call it "old-age" if you like.
So, may the light in all of us shine out to others and may we be receptive to it when it does.
Re: sorry for all the grief i caused mariu and everyone else
It's ok Bryan.
I could say that I understand you and what you are going through but nobody can really know how it is like, right? We can see life only through our eyes. I can only imagine how unbearable that can be and I wish I could help.
If you could receive help what things you would like to receive? If there is anything you can do what would you like or could find acceptable to do?
You have gathered a great amount of information and experience with your travelling and moving about, nothing you can do with all that knowledge?
For people like you that don't like being around noisy people (and I do get that point!!) working from home it's the best. You love dogs...what about a dog refuge where people that are going on holiday can leave you the dogs for weeks? Can you imagine being paid just to be at your house with lots of nice funny dogs? Write could be a valid option too with all the things you have observed in this illusion called life. How does it feel to do something with it?
I would really love to know what are the things you expect to happen. I know many have promised things to you and then those things never happened but what have you promised to yourself?
Re: sorry for all the grief i caused mariu and everyone else
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we survived on my giving stocktrading advice until 2005. then clients disappeared and things starting going downhill.
Wow! I knew you were clever...ehehe...Even though the clients went I don't think they took away your skills and knowledge. They are still there bryan, unless that life just went because wasn't good for you anymore, which is alright too.
I noticed something bryan, could be that you don't get any job there because is not where you want to be? So any job there really would tie you up in a place you don't like?
Anyway, how much would you need to reach the north west that you desire? You really believe that there you can be better? Nothing you can do about it that could help you raise the money to move to your little natural paradise in north west?
Re: sorry for all the grief i caused mariu and everyone else
Hey bryan, remember me? I left you a brief message in the channeling where we met before I found you here.
Like you I was also excited about instant manifesting but it's seems so difficult!
As far as your symptoms- do you exercise regularly? I've heard it helps. Also, I've found my body feels a lot better when I'm eating really healthy (lots of fruits, water, no processed foods etc). But I suppose it's not easy to eat really healthy when having money issues...
Have you tried to work from home? I'm not a fan of 3D jobs myself. I'm a college student and I've been making a decent living online for over 9 months now. I own a few websites. Although these past few months my earnings have decreased by half so I'll be trying something new. I'm thinking of selling stuff online. Perhaps you could consider trying that? Maybe you have some stuff at home you can try selling on ebay, amazon or craigslist?
You could also make money writing articles. checkout beaguide.about.com/applynow.htm, associatedcontent.com, lifetips.com, digitaljournal.com, groundreport.com.
I don't know how fast you type but you could become an at-home transcriber. I was one two summers ago. There are several companies that hire even beginners like accutranglobal.com/jobs.html.
If you're interested in any of the above and need more info/help getting started, let me know, I'll gladly help.
How does sound a caravan or a trailer in a camp or any other very nice natural reserve? There are some that are nice and cheap. And it's a step closer to nature than a flat.
If you want to stay away from people I wouldn't look for flats they usually come in buildings and they are full of people and tend to be in developed areas. Also an apartment is more expensive I would guess? To start maybe this could be a good solution wherever you are and maybe you could save up some money.
You know I'm really far from you and live completely in a different reality, I really wish I could give a hand. A donation through paypal?
we'd need something on the outskirts of a city with mass transit. that's what we had in vancouver, canada. hans has looked at spokane, washington. has good transit and it goes far out to nature. unfortunately hans and i don't drive a car after 15 years living in europe which i'm sure you understand. so we'd need to be near nature but on a city bus line like we had in vancouver, canada.
hans did say he's found some guy who is willing to rent his house for cheaper than an apartment because he's in foreclosure (in spokane)..many people in foreclosure will rent for cheap because they are not paying their mortgage payments.
i have had friends transfer money from europe (finland) from their account and it got into my account within 4 working days so it doesn't take that long. i don't have a paypal. my friends in europe told me transfer from europe to the USA take almost as long as paypal anyways. hans used to have paypal for his canadian account and he told me it takes as long to transfer from a european bank account to US bank account as it does to transfer thru paypal.
Bryan,
As I am reading this, there are tears in my eyes. I could tell from some of your posts that you were in pain and angry...but you just took it too far. People were trying to reach out to you, relate to you, find some common ground, and you lashed out at all/most of us. Not everyone who is seeking and have found this site are fluffy and "new-agey"as you assumed that we were. I too have had my dark days....so I do think I understood, on some level, what you were trying to express. But you need to give other people some respect, for trying to lift others up during these times, or report what they are "getting" via a channel, higher self, or whomever. Or for just being who they are. From this post, I would say, please don't give up yet...from what I have read... a lot of people tend to give up right before a break through is made or "success" is near.
If you could shift your focus to gratitude in just one way, each day, say for how wonderful kids and dogs are to you, maybe there will be a change for you. I don't know...just take one step in front of the other, like the rest of us.
Also, Namaste isn't new-age either, it basically means "the light in me sees the light in you"...and it has been used in India for a long time...so you could call it "old-age" if you like.
So, may the light in all of us shine out to others and may we be receptive to it when it does.
Be well. My thoughts are with you and Hans.
xxxg...
It's ok Bryan.
I could say that I understand you and what you are going through but nobody can really know how it is like, right? We can see life only through our eyes. I can only imagine how unbearable that can be and I wish I could help.
If you could receive help what things you would like to receive? If there is anything you can do what would you like or could find acceptable to do?
You have gathered a great amount of information and experience with your travelling and moving about, nothing you can do with all that knowledge?
For people like you that don't like being around noisy people (and I do get that point!!) working from home it's the best. You love dogs...what about a dog refuge where people that are going on holiday can leave you the dogs for weeks? Can you imagine being paid just to be at your house with lots of nice funny dogs? Write could be a valid option too with all the things you have observed in this illusion called life. How does it feel to do something with it?
I would really love to know what are the things you expect to happen. I know many have promised things to you and then those things never happened but what have you promised to yourself?
mariu
xxxx
we survived on my giving stocktrading advice until 2005. then clients disappeared and things starting going downhill.
Wow! I knew you were clever...ehehe...Even though the clients went I don't think they took away your skills and knowledge. They are still there bryan, unless that life just went because wasn't good for you anymore, which is alright too.
I noticed something bryan, could be that you don't get any job there because is not where you want to be? So any job there really would tie you up in a place you don't like?
Anyway, how much would you need to reach the north west that you desire? You really believe that there you can be better? Nothing you can do about it that could help you raise the money to move to your little natural paradise in north west?
mariu
Hey bryan, remember me? I left you a brief message in the channeling where we met before I found you here.
Like you I was also excited about instant manifesting but it's seems so difficult!
As far as your symptoms- do you exercise regularly? I've heard it helps. Also, I've found my body feels a lot better when I'm eating really healthy (lots of fruits, water, no processed foods etc). But I suppose it's not easy to eat really healthy when having money issues...
Have you tried to work from home? I'm not a fan of 3D jobs myself. I'm a college student and I've been making a decent living online for over 9 months now. I own a few websites. Although these past few months my earnings have decreased by half so I'll be trying something new. I'm thinking of selling stuff online. Perhaps you could consider trying that? Maybe you have some stuff at home you can try selling on ebay, amazon or craigslist?
You could also make money writing articles. checkout beaguide.about.com/applynow.htm, associatedcontent.com, lifetips.com, digitaljournal.com, groundreport.com.
I don't know how fast you type but you could become an at-home transcriber. I was one two summers ago. There are several companies that hire even beginners like accutranglobal.com/jobs.html.
If you're interested in any of the above and need more info/help getting started, let me know, I'll gladly help.
xxxx
xxx
How does sound a caravan or a trailer in a camp or any other very nice natural reserve? There are some that are nice and cheap. And it's a step closer to nature than a flat.
If you want to stay away from people I wouldn't look for flats they usually come in buildings and they are full of people and tend to be in developed areas. Also an apartment is more expensive I would guess? To start maybe this could be a good solution wherever you are and maybe you could save up some money.
You know I'm really far from you and live completely in a different reality, I really wish I could give a hand. A donation through paypal?
we'd need something on the outskirts of a city with mass transit. that's what we had in vancouver, canada. hans has looked at spokane, washington. has good transit and it goes far out to nature. unfortunately hans and i don't drive a car after 15 years living in europe which i'm sure you understand. so we'd need to be near nature but on a city bus line like we had in vancouver, canada.
hans did say he's found some guy who is willing to rent his house for cheaper than an apartment because he's in foreclosure (in spokane)..many people in foreclosure will rent for cheap because they are not paying their mortgage payments.
i have had friends transfer money from europe (finland) from their account and it got into my account within 4 working days so it doesn't take that long. i don't have a paypal. my friends in europe told me transfer from europe to the USA take almost as long as paypal anyways. hans used to have paypal for his canadian account and he told me it takes as long to transfer from a european bank account to US bank account as it does to transfer thru paypal.