Hi there everyone

Stumbled on this forum at a time when I am reaching out for all the support I can get. Given some channelings from Archangel Michael through Celia Fenn for the month of April and the energies moving at this time, I suppose I should not be surprised that my marriage is over and I am facing an angry husband who suddenly decided he does not love me and wants me to move out immediately. Talk about powerful energies! I'm sad about losing my life partner but I understand that perhaps our time together has come and gone. Still hurts though ... A few prayers will do nicely. I find it so hard to let go of my belief in miracles. But perhaps asking a miracle for my marriage is the wrong mirracle to ask for, perhaps I should ask for the miracle of a new beginning. Please add your prayers to mine for guidance. Thanks Catie

Thanks for the kind words. At the moment I feel nothing but grief and dispair with all the doors around me closed. I feel as if not even the Angels are hearing me anymore. I cannot talk to him. Any attempt to talk brings only hateful words that wound me even more. If there was a reason for it, I could understand, but I gave love, tolerance, compassion and kindness, he gave selfishness, intolerance and anger. But do you think I could break away? No, I could not. And now that he has finally realised that he has failed miserable at the marriage - and believe me he does not want to let go of his selfish ways - he blames me as my softness makes him see me as a whimp that deserves to be despised. He apparently fell out of love with me because I am "pathetic and needy". Even my tears at losing him are used to taunt me as being weak and pathetic. All of which are so untrue. I am a strong and successful woman and I know and believe that joy is my destiny and love is my birthright - but why can I not find alternative accommodation if I am supposed to lose/leave him? Why am I suddenly in financial trouble and cannot afford a new place of my own where I could go to heal? I am forced to live in a house where I am hated and unwelcome and never am I allowed to forget for a minute that he cannot wait to be rid of me.

As you say, somewhere must be a gift and I am grateful for that ... I know I must leave but practicalities keep me here. Plus, a medium working with Angels told met I have to stay which is why the doors are closed - it is a sacred contract. But I just don't know how much more I must endure for the sake of someone else's lesson (the medium did say it was his lesson.)

Sorry to blurt it all out, I don't expect you to have answers. I am just grateful for the opportunity to unload my pain without being judged. You can imagine how I am being judged by friends and family for still being here ...

Thanks for the big hug - I am running rather low on those at the moment!

Catie

You have such amazing insight. You are spot on that I am a mirror showing him what he does not want to see. I did try staying with a friend - and ended up being totally miserable away from my things and area. I could not work from home, had no internet or e-mail access etc and on top of it my friend became quite demanding after a few days. My husband was upset that I left to stay there and tried everything including the usual promises to get me not to go, but as he had been treating me really badly for weeks I decided enough was enough and that I would move out, first to a friend then my own place. Suddenly, the rental market produced only dirty places and I could find nowhere suitable where I could live happily. Also, one of my really big clients lost a lot of money and could not pay my outstanding fees of the last few months and I was dumped into a situation where I have no cash flow. Also, the rest of my friends all have excuses as to why I cannot stay with them.

But, last night I decided that in a way I am all I have now. I am going to tell him today that I will from now on ignore him like does with me. I am going to explain that even though he is trying to blame me as a person and everything that I am for his sudden loss of love for me, he is the one who killed our marriage with his selfish ways. He did not keep a single one of our marriage vows. How can love survive and a marriage work when a partner has no respect for his mate and tries to bend her to his ways with no freedom? Nevermind. I just want him to know that the tears and softness are at an end now. He is dead to me. I'll wait here in this house quietly doing my work (as I have finally stopped crying and trying) until I can find a place to stay.

I don't know from which country you are but here it is no 7 am. Please know that in the last 24 hours you have beena lifeline to me. I was no longer functional or able to reach out to anyone I know. I was no longer making contact with the divine either. Thank you for taking the time to read my posts and responding. I will never forget your wise words of encouragement. I am truly grateful that there are people like you out there. If my husband had 10% of your insight we would have made it.

Hope you have a great day. I am going to have to try to work today if I want to make that looming deadline!

Thanks again
Catie

I'm sure you are right.

We are in the same time zone - I'm in South Africa.

Thanks again!

Hi there

Yes I am much better. Things came to a head and I found the courage to leave home. I am living in a friend's house as she is overseas and will soon move to another friend's holiday home for three months until my own house becomes available again when the tenant leaves in three months.

My husband wants me to go home to him and I really feel sad for him because he does not even realise that our marriage failed because he is abusive and have so far not been able to break the pattern. Going back to him is not the answer - I have done that too many times. Now that I am gone he misses me, but when I am there he soon returns to his abusive behaviour pattern. I know that he comes from a broken home and probably did not have a good example, but he is an adult who does not want to admit that he needs help. I can no longer pay the price for his refusal to face his issues.

We are on friendly terms and I will always be there for him and I will always keep my marriage vows, but I must now look after my health. The stress almost caused a big problem at work and my health suffered greatly as a result of the ongoing trauma and fear at home.

I have given this over to God and the angels - I know they will help him if he allows it, but there is no more that I can do except pray for him. I am however not overly positive - perhaps for the best because I do not want to nurture a flame of hope when I know the chances of my husband going for help are slim. I read somewhere that the angels always work to save marriages. I believe that. I just know it is time for me to be "hands off".

So I suppose it is going as well as can be expected.

Thanks for asking ... it means a lot to me.

I know one day all this will make sense and all the woulds will heal. I am really grateful that there is no bitterness in my heart - I love the good in him dearly and have now learnt to love him without being with him.

We'll have to wait and see what the future holds ...

Take care
Catie