“Dear Saint-Germain, I am a professional instructor and athletic coach. I love teaching, and I enjoy helping others discover their creative energies. Over my lifetime, I have changed in many ways, including discovering that I am gay. As a young man, I kept this hidden from myself because I needed to conform to the expectations of others. Now I am divorced from my wife and I am happily partnered with the man I love.
However, my former wife does not agree with my lifestyle choice, or with my partner, and she does not wish me to have a life with him and my children at the same time. I have a strong desire to continue with this new relationship and my career, too. I also want to be a caring father. But their mother demands that this take place without the influence of my partner around the children, or the reality of my choice to share my life with this man. What can I do? I feel pressured by everyone, so please help. I look forward to your words. Thank you.”
Hello dear friend. This is Saint-Germain here with you, along with Alexandra. We would like to welcome you to this safe and sacred space – a place where you can let the Truth of your Divinity permeate your life. Remember always that you are a Child of God, and God also. This IS the Truth About You.
Who Are You Really?
Yes, my friend, you have discovered yourself to be gay. You have expressed your desire to connect in a loving way with a person of the same sex. This has been a very important breakthrough in your life. Yet, it has also occupied much of your focus recently. So much, in fact, that it has affected your perspective on some other things that are equally important to you, as you've already mentioned to us.
I'm repeating this not because I'm trying to deny your breakthrough – for indeed, I am not. This has been a very important discovery. But I'm mentioning it instead, because it's important for you to look at things from a more expanded, balanced, and complete perspective of yourself now.
Until recently, you've been caught up in a strong, dualistic identity with regard to your sexual orientation; and this has been challenging.
You, along with many others who have discovered and proclaimed their same-sex orientation, can suddenly feel that you've moved from one side of the fence to the other. And this can be quite a shock. Exhilarating, yes. But disruptive to the normal flow of life at the same time.
This is because your gender identification and sexual preferences are part of the way you perceive yourself in the world. These exist at deeply conditioned levels, for better or worse, and this cannot be tampered with lightly, and certainly not without some repercussions. Even now, same-sex partnering is not accepted in most of the world – much to the sadness of those involved.
Right now, it's important for you to look at this change in lifestyle that you've had. To see it for what it is. Not for what you imagine it to be. This has not been about you going from heterosexual to homosexual. From having been a straight man to becoming a gay man.
Rather, it's been about remembering Who You Really Are, and claiming your Divine right to exercise sovereign authority over this.
You are here now to move beyond the feelings of conflict, guilt, and identity confusion that may have troubled you. You are here to get back to the beginning – back to the starting point. You are here on this planet to remember the Truth of your Divinity. To remember that you are a Child of God, and God also.
There is no greater Truth than this about you. And remembering this will correct any other misperceptions about you that you may have had.
Divinity Is Your Identity.
You see, your Soul and Creator are not concerned with any perspective you have that contradicts the reality of your Divinity – whether this be your gender, your sexual preference, your nationality – or your race, ethnicity, religious beliefs, or anything else. The only identity that has any fundamental or lasting relevance to your Soul is your Divinity. Any other way you may label or identify yourself is transitory. It changes from one incarnation to the next.
Your Soul encourages you to remember your Divine Identity, instead. You are a Child of God, and God also...This IS the Truth About You. And this fundamental Divinity is what you share with others, too.
As the world comes to remember this, then peace, tolerance, and loving acceptance will become more commonplace; and this will put an end to many of the injustices that have been committed here.
So we encourage you to move beyond any tendencies that you might have to mis-identify yourself now.
Move beyond the guilt of professing yourself to be your wife's husband, when this ceased to be an appropriate match for you. And move beyond the need to declare yourself a man's partner now, in order to counter those who say such a relationship is wrong for your children.
Rest comfortably, instead, in the remembrance of your Divinity. Rest in the knowledge of Who You Really Are. This Truth will bring you a deeper sense of peace, love, and acceptance, than you have ever known before.
Remember, it's not about denying who you once were, or who you are now. Instead, it's about embracing the integrity of your Wholeness, so you can express the unique blend of masculine and feminine energies within you.
In your case, you have come to a deeper understanding of your Soul's desire to express itself with the feminine flow. And just because you have chosen to experience this in a way that is unconventional for the majority of people, doesn't mean that there is anything unconventional about it at the core of your spiritual being.
At the core of you, you're still the same Soul-inspired individual that has incarnated in many lifetimes. The same Loving Being. In fact, you have always carried this potential for a wonderful flow of nurturing, feminine energy from one lifetime to the next. This genuine, sensitive energy has always been there to support others, whether you were male or female, gay, lesbian, or straight.
You have come into this particular lifetime with a mandate from your Soul to experience the nurturing and feminine flow of energy. But you have also come to meld it with another side of you, too, which is your masculine energy. And you are bringing these two together very well now, and by your own standards and choices – not according to the conventions and expectations of others. This is a wonderful example of living with spiritual sovereignty. Congratulations!
Sovereignty and Sexual Expression.
And this works for you very well in the job that you do as an athletic instructor, too. It works for you because you are able to bring that feminine nurturing energy into an activity that involves the masculine flow of energies. They flow very well together. This is a very good way for you to express yourself professionally. You are being encouraged by your Soul to continue this occupation for as long as you enjoy it.
But your Soul is also encouraging you to bring this same balancing of the masculine and feminine energies into other areas of your life, as well. You're encouraged to bring this balance into the relationships that you have with your current partner, your former wife, and your children, too.
As you start bringing the unique balance of your energies into other areas of your life, along with a continued remembrance of your Divinity, then you're going to find that much of your guilt and confusion start to subside, and that clarity about how you can handle these parts of your life will return.
Your partners, both past and present, have had a lot of influence on you. And because of this, you have let yourself be driven to decisions that you're not always happy with. Your Soul is encouraging you now to move away from this. To move away from making decisions that are based upon what others expect of you.
In fact, right now your real life-challenge is not about your sexual orientation. It's an issue of spiritual sovereignty, instead. It's about your Divine right to self determination along a path of love of your choosing.
So if you treat it as such, then again, much of your confusion will subside.
Remind yourself that within the vastness of your Divinity – which is your True Identity, – you are choosing your own path of love here on Earth. You are in a loving relationship with a man. Yet, you are also choosing to love your children as a caring father would. And this is important to you.
You are not required to sacrifice either of these on the altar of social convention. Instead, accept your sovereign right to choose a path of love that works for you; and then advocate for this with those you stand in relationship with... your current partner, your former wife, your children, and your family. Dare to bring the socially conventional and unconventional elements of your life together, if this feels right to you; and then find a balance that works for you.
Don't try to please others, just as a way to rid yourself of the guilt that you feel over your life choices. Let that go now. Just release it.
At the core, you know Who You Are. You understand your Divinity. Let that come out into the world now, and let that be the basis for your decisions. When you do, you will find that the relationships you have with your children, your current partner, and your former wife will function well enough. And you will be able to let them know in your own unique way, just how much you love them, and how much they are part of your life.
So this is basically our message for you today, and we encourage you to bring this understanding to the decisions that you are making now.
I'd like to thank you, my dear friend, for bravely choosing to walk a path of love, in spite of the challenges that you have faced as a gay man.
I AM Saint-Germain, and I am always here to support you.
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