Meditation saved my life. I used to say this all the time after I began sitting meditation almost 20 years ago. I still remember the moment when all that labeling of thoughts as "thinking" actually showed up spontaneously in the middle of an argument as an angry, reactionary thought arose and instead of speaking, I heard, in my mind "thinking."
I am still humming with awe at my entry into this auspicious year of 2012, and astonished by what can be accomplished by forgiveness--especially self-forgiveness--on this journey of remembering and re-assembling as light.
Many of you find yourselves wondering at times if you're on track. If you're actually living in such a way as to create the experience you wish to have. You wonder if it's on it's way, if it is really being manifest, if you're allowing it, if you're somehow in essence "doing it right." This need for valiation and knowing is a very healthy thing. In essence, it's a wonderful invitation: it calls you to develop your connection with your inner way of believing in something.
The energy this month may fool you. It will let you believe you are opening to Oneness and then it will lead you into a new configuration in which you will feel a bit like you can't feel your connection to things. Don't be concerned about these waves of experience; you are being substantially upgraded this month and with each alteration to your structure, your energetic interfaces to Gaia, your higher-self, the crystalline Earth grid, to your soul family and other versions of you, are being enlarged and elevated.
There are so many good things to wake up to. I just ate the most amazingly sweet pear. An entirely good reason to get out of bed in and of itself! What's next life...?! Loving all of it. Feeling very peaceful and rested at last after many high-vibe-buzzing days with less sleep and the body-temple hunkered down to integrate all the energy that has been flowing onto our beautiful planet.
I've been reflecting lately on all the small shifts I've made over time which have accumulated into the happiness I now experience. Happiness I've learned, is not the result of one thing, but a certain way of being and a momentum of many things stringing together moments where we feel good.
I AM a star. As such I generate light through my focus. As I AM the eyes of God, of Source, of All-That-Is, my appreciation flows endless amplitudes of light. As I move into greater transparency with this vastness of my own being, I experience a foreigner's sense of living an Earth-life and it is as if I came here recently, new to this place and am freshly choosing how and what I wish to experience.
Star Beings of Light step forth in this Divine and auspicious moment as one Council of Light to share with you news from the leading edge, news that we hope will inspire you to shine brightly and seek joy and bliss with all your hearts.
Well, if you're feeling this, congratuations. Your feedback system, your amazingly perfect inner compass is attuned and working well. This kind of feeling is the emotional equivalent of a siren, or a flashing red light: it's a alert! It's USEFUL. It's telling you something like: you're disoriented. You're out of sync with you. Like maybe you've let THE authority on all this slip into the background and are listening to other people's guidance and advice?