What circumstances exactly are you waiting for before your Debut into Full Service to your Higher Self? The Spectacular Pre-Event you wait for, what is it? Thunder and Lightning? Night turning into Day?
You are here on Earth to lift the world. Focus a cut-above. Stop looking for difficulties and finding them. Climb higher and see better. See the horizons before you. See vaster. Perhaps a cure doesn't come from figuring out but by seeing anew.