Emotions like guilt and shame do not exist in a vacuum. They are part of a long process of actions involving people and situations that have created these emotions. All we remember is the end of this process, how terrible we feel and these have been repeated often enough to prevent us from moving forward as soon as we sense a hint of them.
I know I just sent out an Ascension Insight message yesterday but was guided to send this one today because what I experienced in the last 48 hours is part of the energy shift that we are experiencing this week with the Equinox today and the Full Moon on September 23. It is an energy boomerang that will show us what happens when we think consider going back to the past. So, here we go, it's an interesting, dramatic story.
Last Tuesday night I was in my office writing while music played in the background. It was a peaceful, joyful evening and I feeling very motivated and energized. Then, in a moment, the power went out and I was sitting in the quiet darkness, with my computer monitor as the only light in the house. So I took the candle I keep in my office and walked to the kitchen to get some matches so I could light some candles until the power was restored.
This month marks the autumnal equinox, which happens on September 22, a time when we once again have an opportunity to balance the energies in and around us. Right after the equinox is a full moon at the Aries point, which is 0 degrees of Aries. This is a powerful transformational force that will give strength to whatever intention you set for yourself. Use the period leading up to it, beginning now, to pay attention to what is coming up in your life to be balanced and then do the inner work that is revealed to you.
I was sitting on my deck enjoying the sunshine when I saw a little inchworm moving up the side of my house. It moved slowly, drawing its body up and forward, one tiny step at a time. It did not stop or falter, did not look around, it just kept moving slowly, ignoring everything but the side of the house and its destination. Now my house is tall and I am not sure what the inchworm was going to do when it got to the roof but it kept moving.
The more the energy shifts open our hearts to the divinity of who we are, the more we become aware of the darker, denser energies we carry. And we see the connections those energies have to our limitations, unhappiness and frustration. Some of these are easy to let go of because we can detach from the experiences that come with them. Learning to not take others’ behavior personally makes it easier to release betrayal and disappointment.
For the past two days I've had a splitting headache, been nauseous, dizzy, spent a sleepless night, felt so tired that I can hardly stand up, had trouble talking and can't focus. I'm not sick, this is what happens to me when we experience huge energy shifts like the one that began last Friday. Chances are, you felt them too. Our bodies go through many physical changes with energy downloads and they can make us feel like we have been run over by a truck. We can't change that as there is more energy coming but we can understand how to manage these symptoms
As we are being propelled into more soul growth and even more challenging lessons, it is obvious that we are longer alone in our suffering. Everyone is experiencing 'karma in the face' syndrome and when we know there is an easier path for them, we can be tempted to help them avoid the drama. But it seems that all we can do is look and watch as they drive themselves over a cliff. No matter what we tell them, they just keep on going, smiling and waving us away from their business. Can we help them? Do we need to? What happens to them if they continue along their path?
This year has been relentless as far as clearing energies, making peace with our current and karmic past (which are intertwined), releasing things that do not serve us and basically doing an energetic house cleaning that is long overdue. We have made a collective commitment to ascend, the desire and will are there but the process has been much harder than we thought.
We're feeling like we're in the land of the obvious and looking for a clue. Just when we are sure that we finally know what we are doing we find out that everything has changed. After months or years of working on ourselves, do we feel any differently than before? Maybe we don't because it has taken us such a long time to get here that we have completely forgotten the person we used to be, and maybe that is a good thing. I, for one, am glad to be beyond the fear, doubt, confusion and uncertainty that I used to have.