My son passed away recently, he was only 30 years old and while I know it is a choice, I can’t believe that this gifted, wonderful young man chose death over life. Was this part of our soul contract and did I do my part because I feel like I let him down since he didn’t choose to live. Will I ever recover from my grief?
When I was a child, machines were made to last forever. That was one of their chief selling points. If you bought a Kenmore washing machine, you could count on it lasting a lifetime. If you bought a Maytag, you could include your children's lifetime. That was before Planned Obsolescence.
The Solstice Pain
We have just completed an amazing cleansing and re-calibration, and now we are poised to move onward after this most recent “wrap up.”
Solstices place us in energy where we have the opportunity to reach far and go deep, and this most recent solstice of December 21 was a very intense one. The days surrounding it, whether before or after, brought in some interesting manifestations, and the holidays only added to (while actually supporting) this process.
Emotionally, these energies elicited what I can only describe as deep pain . It was a painful feeling relating to all that has not yet changed. It was a deep pain that cried out for all the suffering and for all the ways of lower vibration that were so barely tolerable. It was a deep pain that wondered if anything would ever change. And it hurt. The energies were going deep and magnifying what was left of the old.
is a fabulous aspect in the sky right now (it's exact today but will be
active for weeks) Chiron, Neptune and Jupiter are conjunct in Aquarius.
Basically, this is taking us into an unknown area of freedom. Anything
can happen and we probably won't see the results of this alignment for
months or years.
There is not one thing in your life that is not interconnected with another. Nothing is disconnected. You simply do not see the interwoven threads. You see events and people as separate strings when not even one string is separate. You simply do not see the weaving of the threads of life. You see the tips of the threads. Every once in a while you may see a few threads looped together.
My dear friends, we love you so very much. As you learn to surrender your worries, your fears, and your need to know how everything in your life must work, you release your spirit unto God, and you make room for miracles to unfold in your life. Your spirit dear ones is free. Your spirit is free to focus upon anything it wants but your human mind has a a tendancy to hold on to beliefs, ideas, and patterns of thinking that limit you.
Every single thought you have can be assessed in terms of whether it strengthens or weakens you. Authentic wisdom is the ability to monitor yourself at all times to determine your relative state of weakness or strength, and to shift out of those thoughts that weaken you. In this way, you keep yourself in an upbeat, higher state of consciousness, and you prevent your thoughts from weakening every single organ of your body. When you use your mind to empower you, you're appealing to that which uplifts and raises your spirits.