Embracing absolutely everything with the fullness that we are, letting go of old mental constructs and everything that represented unconsciousness leaves SPACE for all of our highest consciousness realities to materialize for us here.
There is a place deep inside of you, where the purity of love exists, where the purity of your soul resides and waits for you to "awaken this". There is a knowing that connects you to all that is again.
There are years of change, pain, grief, loss, when you just don't feel like celebrating. It is part of the human condition. Give yourself permission to abandon tradition and do whatever you feel is most kind to yourself.