It has taken me a long time but I’m learning to put my needs first. I am a single mother, with one daughter and I currently live with my mother, who is having many mental and health problems and is on lots of medications. My mother wants me to stay here with her, my daughter is the center of her world and her only motivation for living and although I want to leave, I am afraid that my mother won’t forgive me if I do, or she will ‘check out’.
Celestina is related to the Throat chakra and lung area. She appears to me in a beautiful Blue Ray which is also the color of the chakra. The gift she brings is healing and freedom from guilt and shame.
After many years of trying to bring my family together, I have decided that I am finished. To be honest, I can no longer bear the emotional pain of the rejection, criticism, and anger of the people who I have tried so hard to love, support and respect. Now that I have disconnected from them, I am not sure what to do next. Where do I focus my energy and how do I know what is the right thing to do?
I am heartbroken and devastated because my boyfriend of seven years left me for another woman. I thought we were doing well and we had even talked about marriage and were making some long term plans. Now he’s with someone else and I don’t know what to do. I am so confused because we connected so well and I thought this was meant to be. What happened?
I am ending a long-term relationship and am trying to do it in the best way possible. Even though I am trying to be nice, my partner calls me unreasonable, says that it is all my fault and that I am being mean. I would like to still be friends when it’s over but he has become so demanding that I have had to hire an attorney and it is all getting out of control How can I end this in a nice way, without being mean?
I’m judgmental and jealous of people I see on the internet. Oprah endorses them, their books get published, they have lots of money and everything is going well for them. They have many fans, they all claim to be spiritual and yet I don’t see them as spiritual at all. I have chosen this spiritual path (or it has chosen me), I work hard too and yet I’m struggling.
Problems are created by the sense of separation which pervades the material stages of consciousness. These problems can be healed by the sense of integration experienced in the spiritual stages of consciousness. A sense of guilt is very common in the material stages of consciousness.
What is the nature of guilt, you ask? It is insidious - in fact contagious - as it is spread from one to another. It is a form of abuse. It is birthed by lack of true power, but one’s feeling of inadequacy and inferiority. Of course, intellectually this is not true, but the young child or innocent or unaware One does not know this within themselves to block it from its inception.
How often have we done something that we have later felt guilty about? A client called because the man she was dating had said something that she felt indicated he didn't trust her. When I reminded her that she had done something that she was out of integrity with, she realized that her reaction was based on her guilt and fear that he would find out about what she had done.
Emotions like guilt and shame do not exist in a vacuum. They are part of a long process of actions involving people and situations that have created these emotions. All we remember is the end of this process, how terrible we feel and these have been repeated often enough to prevent us from moving forward as soon as we sense a hint of them.
The more the energy shifts open our hearts to the divinity of who we are, the more we become aware of the darker, denser energies we carry. And we see the connections those energies have to our limitations, unhappiness and frustration. Some of these are easy to let go of because we can detach from the experiences that come with them. Learning to not take others’ behavior personally makes it easier to release betrayal and disappointment.
