You climbed your mountain and you are free – you just have not yet accepted that you are. You are a bit like elephants trained from infancy to stay in one area with a rope that they could easily break free of as an adult.
Anything worth doing on this planet involves growth, for that is the reason you embark upon any journey. Everything you attempt is, ultimately, an attempt to understand the light and the love that lives within you.
Many fear outcomes despite moving beyond the need to do so. You expect the same result true for this lifetime – before your transition – and many, if not all, previous lifetimes. It is as if someone has gifted you millions of dollars and you wonder when it will be taken away.