petaheskell

I am in a period of great change in my life. Finding the deeper and truer expression of who I am.

I have a gift for communication and if I have to label myself I say I am a writer, speaker, coach, philosopher and seeker.

I am gestating a story about people , that will reveal personality and how it works and lead them to the shedding of patterns, exploration of new ways, and a journey to live from spirit.

I have been writing books, facilitating 'flirting' weekends and coaching people to devlelop more confidence, have more fun, connect and communicate more easily, for ten years, attracting clients via a shower of PR that just turned up because I KNEW it would and an publishing deal for 4 self-help books published by Harpers. Everything just fell into my lap. And now it has all disappeared.

I became disillusioned with the shallowness and the expectations that I was feeding about how finding someone special makes life work. I didn't want to be the Flirt Coach any more and deal with all the silliness of it. Part of me was clinging on and part of me wanted to let go.

And naturally, the work disappeared, I went into a low, which I totally recognise was a time of growth. I went into fear around money. And I am on the edge of a huge leap and still teetering.

I have brought this in and I recognise it is a clearing of the way for me to begin to share and teach what is emerging in me, the lessons I'm learning. I love the weekends I run. I love the experience that it gives people. I love the experiences I am able to generate with people and I am disturbed by new marketing methods.

I am disturbed when I read emails that say 'do you want to get a man addicted to you for life'. All about doing, and nothing about being, it feeds the idea that we can manipulate people into loving us. It's damned scary.

I am disturbed when I receive mails that tear my emotions and I recognise how weak I am. I want to communicate to the part of people that hasn't woken up yet instead of playing into the 3d game that says 'things are wrong - here's the quick fix digital 'do, do, do' fix.

I have been single for four years, dipping into some relating experiences and learning soooooo much. I was in relationship for twenty years, ongoingly, and when that went I had a huge shift and it was just the beginning. I know that while I am seeking love inside me I am also seeking it outside.

I want to explore first hand an intimate relationship as a spiritual practice - a source for mutual joy and also the ground for growth, sometimes painful growth [and that's a meme too!]. And I am evolving into loving myself enough to 'live love' for another.

I'm aware of the dangers of being attracted to someone as part of my salvation. I struggle with the desire for deep spiritual, emotional and physical connection and the knowing that I still have more love to find in me...

I realise that we all need to develop our inner strength and core that is impermeable to the memes that are so prevalent today. And I recognise that the greatest meme is that we are separate and that there is not enough or that to get we have to compete and beat.

I feel deeply my skills of communication and interpretation that help me teach from who I am. As my 3d reality begins to shatter, I recognise that I have huge shifts to make and that my gift is to communicate a message through the sharing of my experiences as I make this shift and evolve.

I feel the changes rumbling in the earth. I watch culture in a big picture way and see the waves of chaos and also see the counter ripples as little by little but quicker and quicker, people are waking up.

I watch the bookshelves and see how they expand. I follow how viral marketing works and love the idea of spinning an idea and having it grow and grow in an instant.

I glance at newspapers [aware of how many unuseful pervasive memes they also carry] and I see more and more lifestyle columns featuring psychics, alternative healing methods and self help experts so much more frequently and easily than ten years ao. There is a new spiritually fed culture emering and this place is part of it, which is why I am here.

I feel drawn to America, a land of plenty which is much disturbed as is the UK BUT which has the advantae of many wide open spaces - land - where people can create new realities, reate new communities, new ways of living. And I'm scared! And I feel the barriers of my own making.

And right now I am listening to Crimson Circle channellings, questioning the 'where' it comes from but loving what I hear, not liking what I hear as I face my pernicious fundamental belief systems, realising what is creating my reality..in a valley that many people have visited... and daily facing the beliefs around abundance and how life is, that are NOT serving me.

So here I am a seeker, an evolver, and a messenger to those who are a few steps behind on their awakening path.

with love and a big ;-)
peta
pure energy taking action

My website is old energy but it has a lot of information about my work, many articles on love,relating, flirting and attraction. http://www.attractionacademy.com I am in the process of moving my shop window to a new site I'm involved in which is about enlightened relating, understanding yourself, your patterns leading to a new way of relating.