You are preparing for a new year and new you.
You believe you are no different than before you initiated your transition. Yet, you have become belligerent when feeling pushed, belittled, or ignored. You also feel more joy than you anticipated mere days ago.
Of course, some of you continue to be mired in your yesterdays – but less than before in both feelings and actions.
So it is you are claiming your new being day by day as your giggles float to the surface and your joy becomes contagious.
Such is not to say you have become fully new you, but instead that you can sense who you are becoming in ways you did not believe possible a few weeks ago. The heaviness you felt since you began this transition seems to be more of a memory than your current reality.
Of course, you can bring painful memories to the forefront if you wish. It is just that you wish to do so less and less. Your painful memories are becoming more like a school subject you did not enjoy and have no current use for than the conscious and subconscious trauma you held onto lifetime after lifetime.
Others are beginning to note your joy and laughter. Not that they have not noted it before, but that you once use joy and laughter to hide some of your true feelings. For your past actions were often coated with unprocessed fears and angst.
Often you used past joy to become someone you were not. Like a comedian who is sad when he or she is not performing. The joy you displayed was likely not true to you but instead was what was expected of you.
Even though some of you have never been the life of the party, you managed to laugh or smile at socially appropriate places. You are now discovering you have little need to smile or laugh unless you feel something is funny to you – no one else.
So it is also for those of you who have been the life of the party. Your joy focus is much more centered on your being instead of pleasing others.
Perhaps you know people who brought joy to others just by their comments or actions. Yet, those people most often functioned in 3D as others expected – almost as unpaid comedians.
So it is those unpaid comedians and those of you who smiled and laughed because you thought you should are declaring freedom from those limitations.
New freedoms that are creating true joy within you instead of needing to make others laugh – or a need to smile at the socially acceptable places. Of course, such does not seem that difficult until you test it as many of you have been for months.
You have changed your humor self in ways you did not anticipate a few months ago. Those people who make fun of you in a supposed loving way, are no longer funny. And those who make fun of others in the same fashion are less than funny to new you.
Granted, you have a sense of humor, but it is a new sense of humor that has little to do with 3D you or others. Humor in the past was often about making fun of others or you. About encouraging the disparaging remarks that passed for humor in a fear-based world.
It is no different if humor is based on disparaging you, another being or a grouping for all is about trying to make someone feel less than they are.
So it is you have crossed the humor bridge without pain or fear. For you now find yourself telling others that something is not funny or leaving the scene despite what others think or say about you doing so.
You are stronger and wiser than was true just weeks ago.
You are approaching your new year with a different being that seemingly slipped into your physical body without your knowledge.
In truth, you fought for your new being ‘tooth and nail’ despite your seeming ease of doing so.
You are no longer of 3D.
Your greatest proof of that last statement is you have altered your being without fists, guns, or other fear producing actions. You merely decided what you will or will not accept.
So it is you are the beacon of hope and love for those who wish to follow. For you are discovering that new you is more than enough to be of heaven and earth. That true you in all your wisdom is enough.
You do not need to learn how to function in any society – including the one you are currently in. You are you and that knowledge is all you need now and forevermore. So be it. Amen.
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