In all the years of writing these Monthly Visions, this month’s has definitely been the most challenging. Usually there is a very clear overall theme being experienced by the collective, with us all as individuals expressing variants on these themes in our own personal ways. This month it has been almost impossible to pin down a clear collective theme, at least in the usual way it comes through.
At first glance the energies seem disjointed and fragmented, like jigsaw puzzle pieces all floating around either unable or unwilling to put themselves together into one harmonious whole. Many pieces are experiencing a magnetic ‘pushback’ from other pieces, and this is happening on multiple levels.
We are all experiencing this ‘pushback’ on an inner level to one degree or another regardless of the amount of clearing we’ve done – but it is definitely manifesting in a more chaotic and difficult to deal with way for those who have remained unconscious to their own energy. For those who haven’t spent a lot of time clearing their emotional and energetic debris this ‘pushback’ is generating extreme emotional and mental turbulence that is being expressed outwardly as erratic, unpredictable behaviour, and internally as severe mood swings, anxiety and feelings of panic, or a complete retreat into numbness. This is happening to so many people that it is highly likely that even if you aren’t experiencing this within yourself you know someone close to you who is, (or many someones) and in some cases may find yourself being directly affected by the ‘whitewash’ of their inner washing machine spin and rinse process.
If you have done a lot of work on clearing your energies and are still feeling this way (albeit in a more mild way) keep reading – and in the meantime spare a thought and some compassion for the ones who are feeling this turbulence without knowing why. Knowing what’s going on energetically doesn’t make us immune from any aspect of the shift, but it does help us navigate our way through it, and our past experience at least has given us tools to know how to cope more easefully. The more that you can stay in your centre, not only will it help to make you feel more sane but it will also serve to help others find an anchor of support when they need one. Extend compassion where you can. It is easy to judge and think “well everyone had the same opportunity as we did to wake up, so why didn’t they?” The density of this planet (until now) cannot be over-stressed. To be here, and to have awoken prior to the higher frequency energies associated with this Shift period, was no easy task. It most likely means that you are part of the wave that is here to support the masses that are undergoing their awakening now. I don’t want to go all woo woo on you but writing that brought a wave of gratitude from upstairs and tears are welling up in my eyes because they are saying to all of us “Thank You, you cannot possibly know what it is you are achieving just by being there with your Self, with your Light. Please know the Great service you are performing by being there for the beloved Planet Earth, Gaia, and your brothers and sisters residing there at this time, along with your brothers and sisters watching from elsewhere. You are needed. Each and every one of you. Thank you.”
For those among us who are very sensitive to energy – and that includes most everyone reading this – it is easy to pick up on and absorb what those around us are going through, mistaking it for our own feelings. They’re showing me this image of when something is giving off a lot of electricity. When you are around something like that you can hear the buzz and you can sometimes even feel that zhoozy, electricity feeling in the air. So as we’re all walking around, in our homes, workplaces and communities, we are feeling all the ‘electricity’ going through people that they are having a hard time processing. Where a person’s inner aspects are waking up and trying to get their attention, but are continuing to be ignored or repressed, that energy isn’t flowing as it should be. It keeps circulating around the body, generating the turbulence. So on some level, a sensitive observer can feel this, like it’s a combustion waiting to explode, or a dam about to burst. Sometimes we are aware we are picking up on the other person’s ‘stuff’, other times we don’t realise until later.
It helps to say something like: “if this is not mine, please go back to your rightful owner with love.” The more we’ve cleared our stuff, and the more we know who we are, the easier it becomes to distinguish what is yours vs what is not.
Every aspect of us is awakening right now, ready or not. There is a popular ‘new age’ saying – “we are never given more than we can handle.” In a way that’s true, but at the moment people are definitely experiencing more than they consciously think they can handle. This is because the reins as it were are now in the hands of our higher selves, greater selves, Souls, whatever you want to call it. This is not a separate energy to us – it is US. We’ve been living within a very small version of who we really are. The greater ‘who we really are’ is now incoming, downloading, activating, awakening. We are expanding, and fast. The greater ‘who we really are’ IS ready, whether we consciously are ready or not. The greater ‘who we really are’ can’t wait anymore for us to be ready, because if it did wait there are some who’d never be ready. I’m sure there are examples in your life where you weren’t really consciously ready for something but the universe pushed you into that experience anyway. I’m never ready to upgrade my technology. My laptop and phone are usually on their last legs before I upgrade. I really have to be forced into the new when it comes to technology, but the change is always amazing and I think why didn’t I do this earlier?
This ‘pushback’ is also manifesting externally, on the community, media (including social media) and global level. Opinions and beliefs are polarising to their absolute extremes, which is leaving a lot of people feeling very alone, misunderstood and isolated. For the many who are consciously aware that we are now in the time we have been waiting for – a new cycle, a time we associated with greater awakening, more peace, harmony and unity – there is a sense of sadness and frustration with the perceived lack of awakening occurring. There is a sense of anger about the shenanigans we can still see going on, shenanigans that appear to be increasing in brazen disregard for the average person’s health, wellbeing and intelligence levels.
The obvious question (and the one I certainly had for ‘them’) is: why are we seeing this polarisation? Aren’t we coming out of polarisation and isn’t this time meant to be all about unity and harmony?
They are reminding me that awakening is about awareness, a word we often associate with being more conscious but at its root it means to have something be made known. In the short term, expanded awareness of previously hidden truths and awakening of previously dormant aspects can cause chaos as everything re-shuffles itself in response – and that response can be one of allowing and going with the new flow, or one of resistance.
They are saying that this time is intensifying everything within us, to bring it to our awareness, so firstly they would more say that we are in a period of intensification rather than polarisation. However because everything is intensifying, we are seeing more clearly and feeling more strongly the stark differences between different aspects of ourselves, between different beliefs and opinions. More of us are feeling the need to express that which is coming up within us in more ways. These differences, understandably, feel like a polarisation is occurring. However the problem with that word is that it conjurs up images of an ‘us’ and ‘them’. It suggests that the world is being divided in two, with one group of people headed in one direction with their beliefs, and the other group headed into another with their beliefs. People have spoken about a potential for the Earth to splinter off into two different Earth’s, and so could look at the polarisation and say, see, it’s happening. Only, it’s not happening.
You see, there is no ‘one group’ of people who all share the same beliefs about everything. You may be experiencing lately that you are totally in harmony with someone when it comes to the subject of consciousness and awakening, but then when it comes to the latest global hot topic you passionately disagree. You may be stunned to realise that the person next door who you thought you have nothing in common with, who has never entered the world of ‘self-help’ or ‘conscious creation’ and thinks it’s all a bunch of hogwash is completely on your page when it comes to talking about ufo visitations or a so called conspiracy theory. There is no neat little package where we ship one type of people off to one Earth, and another type of people onto another new Earth. There is no ‘one type’ of people. We have differences with those we have much in common with, and we have things in common with those we really thought we were very different to.
What is happening is that the intensification process is generating mini-polarisations within every possible belief, topic and issue. Let’s call these polarisations the pink team and the yellow team. On one topic you are team pink, but on another you are team yellow. Overall, you may identify more with team pink on most things so it can be easy to look at the overall polarisation happening in the world (the result of billions of mini-polarisations jostling for air-time) and think: Oh wow, the world is really dividing into team pink and team yellow! Go team pink! But if you look at the world, and yourself, from a bird’s eye perspective you’ll actually realise that the world is not dividing into team pink and team yellow. We are all holding some team pink and some team yellow. Actually it’s more than just team pink and yellow – there is team blue, green, orange, turquoise, lime, red, white, coral and so on – and we all hold some energy from all of them!
So that’s why, from that perspective, there is not a Polarisation of humanity happening. There is an intensification of everything within us, with each thought/belief/aspect within us holding a particular energy in a strong way, and when that is highlighted against an opposing energy, this looks like polarisation.
Why are they stressing the distinction between intensification and polarisation? Because polarisation suggests everyone and everything is moving further apart. Whereas intensification is about moving everything into clearer, sharper focus. It is neither about moving things closer together or further apart.
When things are in clearer, sharper focus, then we can make more conscious decisions about how we want to live, energetically, mentally, emotionally and physically.
Okay so how will this intensification process continue to unfold along with their resulting ‘mini-polarisations’? At the moment it feels like people are being called to intermingle with smaller and smaller clusters of like-minded people. Again, this isn’t to say everyone in each of those clusters is on the same page about everything, but certainly to a degree it feels we are being more drawn to spend more, or most, of our time with those we feel most in harmony with. You might have a family cluster composed of the members of your immediate and extended family that you feel most ‘you’ with. You might also have several community/social clusters composed of friends or some group that shares a common interest. You might have a work/soul-oriented cluster composed of people who share your mission and calling. You might have a social media cluster composed of certain web pages or forums where you feel you can speak truthfully and be heard.
Moving throughout those clusters is you, the you that is becoming more and more the greater version of You. So amid all of this intensification and mini-polarisations going on, the best thing you can do for yourself is to be with your Self. Be true to you. If something doesn’t feel right, it probably isn’t – for you. If something doesn’t feel good, it probably isn’t - for you. More and more you’ll find yourself saying no to things that just don’t feel good to you, and yes to things that do.
Many of us have already been on this journey a long time, and so we’re already finding ourselves spending most of our time in our harmonious clusters, and able to be (most of the time) within our truth and heart and centre. Even so, it can be difficult to watch others go through their journey. It’s always harder to watch a loved one jump out of a plane than do it yourself, or sit back while your child goes out clubbing even though you did it hundreds of times.
So I’m asking them the question does this mean we all end up in small clusters, fairly isolated from other clusters who aren’t on our page? They are showing me the image of a rubber band being pulled more and more tightly. There is only so far any intensification or polarisation process (mini or otherwise) can go before it reaches breaking point. That breaking point is happening a billion times a day, right now, to all of our thoughts/beliefs/issues as a result of our newly expanding awareness. We are being flooded by revelations in every aspect of our selves, lives, society and world. The curtain is being pulled back to reveal that which is illusion and that which is truth. As this happens, clusters will become larger, and we’ll find that the world of unity and harmony we know we came here to help create is being created. We are riding an unstoppable wave right now toward that world, only our focus for so long has been on that which we will create we perhaps didn’t look at what the ‘resistance’, ‘intensification’ and ‘mini-polarisations’ part of the process would look and feel like. It is easy to now get overly focused on that part and think it’s all gone to &#&@ and we give up, but it is more important than ever that we focus on the job we came here to do, and do it in whatever ways we feel called to do.
It is quite the irony that on our way to some sort of global unity and harmony, the journey toward that includes an intense process of individuation. It’s not individuation as we knew it from an ego perspective. It’s individuation as known by the Soul. It is an expanded awareness of everything we have ever been. It is an intensification of everything within us, to be further expanded or released. This is necessary so that we truly embody who we really are on this Planet, so that we can step into our new roles for this next great cycle.
...continues on Part 2