In this day and age of ‘you create your reality’ mindset, this idea is often talked about as if ‘You’ is a singular entity, able to be controlled and lassoed with a few strong thoughts and positive affirmations.
The reality is that this ‘You’ is made up of countless aspects, conscious and subconscious, holding a myriad of beliefs, emotions, desires and fears, existing on multiple dimensions. This kaleidoscope that is ‘You’ can be likened to a team of wild horses, ideally all going in one direction but more often than not they are going in multiple directions, or trying to. In the centre of all that, we have our Soul, the beautiful horse with the very clear vision of where he or she wants to go this lifetime – sometimes the Soul helps to pull the horses in line, and other times the horses push and pull the Soul or ignore her/him completely. At the helm we have our Greater Self, able to see what lies ahead if we keep going in the direction we are going.
From time to time at crucial points of our evolution the Soul has bucked and demanded the horses’ attention or our Greater Self would rein the horses in if they were veering too far off course. Yet for the most part, until recently, we had a kind of Free Will where these horses could do what they wanted to do. It was all part of our greater learning experience.
Party time is over for this particular version of our Free Will team of horses.
Our Soul is taking the lead, and our Greater Self is shouting directions like it’s the final sprint section of a long marathon race.
Our Free Will Team of Horses (including our Ego, various dreams we’ve held, our wounds, etc) are being tossed to and fro with every influx of higher vibrational energy/solar flares/eclipses/cardinal crosses/whatever possible cosmic ammunition the universe has available. The image I get is that scene from Forrest Gump where Lieutenant Dan is sitting atop the shrimp boat in a raging storm, rain bucketing down, thunder, lightning, stormy seas, and he shouts out: “C’mon, you call this a storm?....It’s time for a showdown! You and me!.” Right to the end, we try to hold on to the illusion that we are in control, without fully realising the greater enormity of who it is that we really are.
The next morning, the sea is calm. Lieutenant Dan is sitting on the edge of the boat looking transformed, the anger has left. He says to Forrest “You know, I never thanked you for saving my life.” And he falls over the edge for a swim. Forrest’s observation is: “I think he made his peace with God.”
When our Soul takes the lead and our Greater Self descends into us, calling us to embody who we really are, as we are being called to do right now, it can feel like a storm. It can feel like we are being pushed and pulled by some Divine Force. This Divine Force is YOU, the authentic you, the greater you, the soul of you, calling you back into alignment with you.
We can fight our Self and our Soul all we like, but we’ll end up pretty bruised. Their terrain is no picnic either some of the time, but just like Lieutenant Dan’s night with the storm, the new day comes and in our newly surrendered, humbled state we can see that our Soul and Self has been working for us not against us, the whole time. There we can find our peace.