We have called on the Angels, the Masters, the Saints, spirit guides, and our beloved departed ones, asking for help, for intervention, for miracles, for the winning lottery numbers, for our soul mates phone number.
As we get closer and closer to 2012 the lines of communication began to lessen and grow fragmented. We continued to go outside of ourselves to something ‘greater than’ us, something bigger, better, all knowing. The letters, emails, phone calls, from these ‘greater than’ energies continued to dwindle. We lied to ourselves and convinced ourselves that our third eye was clogged, our heart was closed, and our crown chakra was not in working order.
We knew it was us that were broken, it had to be us that could not hear Gods words. We tried elixers, oils, crystals, meditation, readings, past life regression, and every other new age tool that was available. Still we could not hear the word of the Lord. We spent $1000’s, and 100’s of hours trying on every gimmick there was, trying to fix what we thought was broken.
We looked at others green-eyed, as they seemed profound and all knowing. We took this herb and this vitamin, wore this color on this day and still be could not achieve peak performance. Then one day we just stopped. We stopped praying because no one seemed to answer. We stopped meditating because the visions had not come in months. We stopped trying to manipulate our lives. We stopped trying to manifest our hearts desires, because our heart was so sad. When we stopped trying so hard our lives began to change, little by little, day by day.
We began to feel more comfortable in our own skin. We began to like ourselves again. God did not seem so far away. Life was not as difficult, what had changed? We had finally come full circle and embraced ourselves, the good, the bad, and the un-seeable. We had finally embraced the past, the present, and whatever may come. We had finally learned how to love internally and completely, just as we were that minute. But still we felt something was different.
A veil had been lifted; we had been set free, but from what? It was our expectations of what was supposed to be that had been tripping us up all the time. We saw the whole picture, not just a sliver.