Each and everyday you are given pebbles of worry. Whether real or illusionary they land in your body as solid granules of confusion and pain. They sit heavy and you feel less buoyant and denser. Everyday you go forth and you collect more of these pebbles of worry and confusion allowing them to collect in the body anchoring you like a rusty anchor on a sunken pirate’s ship. You blindly walk through the passageways of your life entering each door, and each situation without joy only an anxiety.
You were all told as a child to grow up and become responsible for your actions, your world, your bills etc. In that residue of responsibility you have been stifled, choking on what you are supposed to do, gasping for fresh air and a second chance. . You walk through your mind thinking about an injustice that was done to you, a fear that was given to you, and a word that cut you to the quick. You sit abreast the merry go round of these past injustices changing horses but never getting off the emotional ride.
Imagine your world as a Hall of Mirrors. You walk slowly through the labyrinth of reflections trying to figure out why someone said this, why someone did this, why you have not found your true purpose. The mirror effect is amplified by all those in your life. They give to you reference points, beginnings and endings, to monitor the temperature of your learning’s. Humanity has sat and licked their wounds not allowing that area of hurt to be healed. Continually focusing on and licking the injustices that one wears as a badge of courage.
The soul is starving for nourishment. Humanity does not always eat from the buffet of heavenly giving’s. They often eat from earthly misgivings. Their soul is hungry, and they sense a need to fill, a need to be filled. Some do this with food, others with sex, and others with alcohol or emotional dampening drugs. As you come into the understanding that your soul is starving for what truly gives it joy, there will be an awakening.
The neuro pathways of your brain have many cul-de-sacs and dead-ends. When you have an insightful thought, an electrical impulse is felt in your brain. A passion runs through your body for a moment. Adrenaline spurts in the blood and then the passion wanes. Sometimes it is you that aborts that passion other times it is another’s word, a sleight of heart, and a sleight of vowel that cuts you dead in your tracks. Your spirits are dampened, the passion is extinguished and you give up.
How many times in your existence have you given up on an idea, an invention, and a love? Your brain has a file cabinet of disappointments. You keep a second biological file of these same failures in your heart. Everything and everyone that ever disappointed or hurt you is kept spinning around in the neural synapses of the brain. You base all of your future experiences on these past inquisitions. You reference the places that you have failed and the places where you were hurt.
Each of you tends to sabotage yourself. It is this continual sabotaging that keeps you, running in circles of difficulty. The 'edge of success' is booby-trapped for humans. At the very edge of success, there is a field of illusions where any little doubt or fear is given a life-force and becomes animated. Many times people do not want to succeed 100%. It is comfortable in succeeding a little bit, but not succeeding in total commitment.