Are you testing yourself? Since you are Source (the Universe/God), nothing outside of you is testing you. You're testing you. A test is something that keeps returning; a pattern, a belief or something that you've been working on.
More Light downloads?! Yep! This Light influx goes deep into Gaia; into Her heart actually; and this affects all living within Her, including ourselves of course. With more Light, there is more Awareness of old patterns to let go of as well as a heightened version of who we are.
We have been in a major period of receiving high dimensional Light. This Light shines on childhood patterns, which have had a way of creating separation. However, there has been a clearing, which also may have had the effect of letting go of certain family members as well as the patterns set up then.
It may seem that we are in a deep freeze; silent; inactive and still, while we dissolve remaining illusions, old beliefs, and old patterns. A meditation that helps is to create a special room; perhaps a cave; with your favorite colors and items...or ask that it be created for you. This special space is your Pineal Chakra.
We continuously bring forth higher and higher frequencies; non-stop. We may feel them more strongly during eclipses and Moon cycles and yet, they continuously flow into us to help us rise in consciousness, which affects every area of our life.
One of the most important things you can do is to release all fear. Having fear; no matter what it is related to; blocks you from being a powerful creator. Creating your life is your job in the New. No-one else can do this for you. There is no blockage; there is only fear of your Power.
If you truly desire to evolve, you must take Responsibility for all in your life; for all in your life are your own creations. Everything in your life you have created through your energy and thoughts ( thoughts are energy, as is all of you).