There is a crisis of faith that many have. They speak of God, they speak of the Universe, they speak of whatever, but underneath it all they are harboring a deep doubt. And the essence, the deepest essence of this doubt is: am I worthy of the love that they say is there for me? How could I be? With all of my failings, with my mistakes and sins, how could I possibly be worthy?
And so many prefer to identify with a judging god, a god who can see them in all their failings and confirm what they believe to be true. Yes, yes, they truly are beyond redemption. And so this cruel judging god, this god of vengeance and judgment, the ultimate judgment, is really just a dream of the confused, a dream of the person who wishes to find a reflection of their own dis-worth.
But it is not so. This dream is not real.
The real God, call Him or Her what you will, is only love, all love, that is all, just love. And within this love there is no judgment. Within this love there is only a deep caring, a deep concern, and much help. Continual help. You are surrounded at all times by love and help.
And it does not matter if you call this love and help God or angels, or Jesus or Mohammed. It does not matter. It is there. We are there. All is there.
And this love and help is not passive. It is active. If you ask, it responds. If you will but allow yourself to value yourself enough to ask, God, the Universe, the All, will respond. And over the passage of time, over the next few days or weeks or months, you will see the unfolding of the support and love that is there for you, if only you will believe just enough to ask, if only you will respect and care enough for yourself to believe just enough to ask, it will all unfold before you.
There need be no crisis of faith. There need be no wondering. The open field is there for all. The unfolding is there. It is all there. The doors swing open, the windows billow wide. It is all there for you, right now, right there, now, now, and now.
Here is a little prayer for today
I believe. I allow myself to believe in my own wonder and goodness. I allow myself to believe.
I am worthy of love. I am deeply worthy of grace, of respect, of the unending love of a generous universe. In my deepest and highest and widest, I not only deserve all of this, I am all of this. I am.