It is human nature to yearn, to take for granted the wonders that are already yours and to wish for more, for other. And it is this yearning that makes your life interesting and sometimes leads you to great things. But it is also this yearning that leads you away from peace and into a state of dissatisfaction, a state in which you are always waiting for things to be better, so that your internal peace is on hold, something to be achieved ‘if only.’
Since it is human nature to be like this, then accept it. But accept it with understanding. See yearning as a friend that comes to visit. Sit down with him and have a good laugh every so often. Is it not amusing that you can work so hard to achieve something and finally get it, only to become dissatisfied and filled again with yearning in such a short time? This is worthy of laughter, is it not?
On the one hand, you yearn for continual change, driven by this inherent dissatisfaction that comes from noticing only change. On the other hand, you are terrified of change that introduces itself to you unbidden, even though many gifts come in its wake. But this is life, your life, the human condition. And if you will but step back every so often, release yourself from the drama and take a long look, you should at least be able to manage a smile at your folly.
See if you can learn to balance each yearning with a bit of love and appreciation for what is, a simple counting of your blessings from a heart full of gratitude for the life that is yours and the love that surrounds you, endlessly pouring and sustaining you. For each measure of desire, be sure to put in a scoopful of gratitude and appreciation. For each wish that things might be other, consciously help yourself to a big portion of love for what is, right now, right here, this moment just as you are, just as life is. And every morning, do spend a moment counting your blessings and just appreciating the breath that flows into your body and the heart that beats there, full of love.
There is no need to be desperate about your life. There is no need to push and be in such a rush for things to become. The desperation and the pushing create turbulence that keeps your desires away. Be an open pool of peace, a welcoming pond, a clearing in the forest, the sound of a gently flowing stream of love like a lullaby, the sunshine of faith pouring in through gently swaying trees, kissed by the light breeze of life and change. Be this garden and invite life to come to you in beauty and peace, in wonder. Here I am, life, gentle and loving, flowing in gratitude and appreciation, opening to your gifts. Here I am.
Here is a little prayer for today
I am the sweet garden of peace and love. I welcome the gentle glow of faith into my life, to bring light and to grace the peace that I create minute by minute, here in the warm and accepting arms of love.
I love my life as it is. I love myself as I am, right now.
I am love. I am peace. I am.