Good things happen when you go for it! ~ Alan Webb
One fine day the great past President Franklin D. Roosevelt channeled the future Tony Robbins and issued a peppy platitude that uplifted a nation in the throes of the Great Depression without ever lifting a Prozac:
"The only thing we have to fear is fear itself."
That was 1933. I would love to say that in 2011 I am finding the phrase a great source of inspiration and encouragement.
But I'm not.
I do fear fear. Most of us do. Fear is scary. That's what makes it fear. I'd much rather arrange life so I never have to partake of the stuff. Oh, Great Bartender, give me a tall glass of the usual - easy on the risks, heavy on the familiar!
Just the other day I went to an amusement park with friends. The day was filled with laughter and fun. They coaxed me (post-adolescent peer pressure) to get on a ride that challenged my fear of heights and my biological ability to retain ownership of the contents of my stomach. I believe the technical term is 'throw-up ride'. A bunch of young kids were on it too, and as the ride went up, way up, they were laughing, screaming, and having great fun.
I wasn't. My belly was knotted in protest and I was dizzy with fear. Suddenly the ride went straight down. Fast. I spent the time hating every moment and wondering why anyone would pay money for an experience like this. I noticed the kids, screaming all the way down, totally loved it. What had I missed? What did they know that I must have forgotten?
That day I found out. My friends convinced me to ride a roller coaster with them. I said yes mostly out of wanting to promote a fearless self-image. It was only after sitting down in the front car and looking up that I realized I made a big mistake. The safety bar locked into place; somehow I did not feel safe. We started going up at a snail's pace, agonizingly slow. My knees began shaking. Panic gripped me. What had I gotten myself into? Damn my co-dependency and egotistic tendencies! There was no turning back, and I was dreading it.
Just as we reached the highest point and were about to rapidly descend, my higher self spoke and gave me the key to enjoying roller coasters. The still small voice was quite large and commanding: "SCREAM, ANGELA, SCREAM! EXPRESS YOURSELF!!"
I started making strange and interesting sounds at the very top of my lungs. I threw a primal tantrum and held nothing back. Very quickly my fear transmuted into a tingling excitement. Laughter bubbled up and out. My need to be on the ground (and in control) dissolved into trust and exhilaration. Whee!!!! I loved it so much that I wanted to ride again.
Perhaps the presence of fear can be a sign that we are courageously buying a ticket to the roller-coaster of change, saying yes to the ride's ups and downs, and not paying allegiance to our ego's plan to keep us small, safe, secure, and unchallenged. Perhaps fear plays an accompanying role in any choice for greater aliveness, passion and healing. And perhaps it would behoove us to rediscover that childlike ability to accept and enjoy fear... deeply breathing, tingling, trembling, and, yes, screaming at times.
"The only thing we have to fear is fear itself."
I would take it a step further. We have nothing to fear. Not even fear. Enjoying ourselves while trembling is a wondrous step in the evolution of becoming free of fear.
I feel a passion to move, and to keep on moving. I've been around long enough to know that staying in one place is not only undesirable, but downright impossible. We are always moving, changing, and growing. Riding the roller-coaster is what we signed up for on this planet. It's non-negotiable. The more we say yes to the ride, the more we enjoy ourselves.
I wish you great delight in the amusement park. Enjoy the fear. SCREAM! Have fun!
Just as the sun lifts the world from darkness to reveal the beauty
of God's magnificent landscape, my Soul gathers me to the I AM
Presence revealing the Light of God that flows through all life.
This Oneness is the awakening force of God's love and I am joined
with it through the temple of the heart.
With sacred intention I honor the responsibility I have to live as
Divinity in form. I call upon the healing waters of heaven to bathe
me in wholeness and correct any distorted patterns of mental or
emotional origin. I commit to embodying the willingness of Spirit
and open all that I am to purity, compassion, wonder, mercy, and
peace. As a result of this my life functions in true alignment with
and from the full knowing of the One omniscient, omnipresent,
omnipotent Source. All my thoughts and actions extend from my
Highest Good and I am able to manifest a reality that comforts my
humanity and my divinity. Integrated as such sacred order is restored
within my realm and establishes a deep abiding trust that all is fine,
good, and right in my world.
Within the Light of a divine plan I offer thanks. Expanded and
magnetized by an act of grace beyond my comprehension I remain
forever grateful for Spirit's endowment this day.
With all power, I seize the commandment of these words. Knowing
they sustain a Holy creation now they dissolve into the Law of
Causation and return to me fulfilled. And so it is. Amen.