1st November 2013: Uranus/Pluto Square

Fully Alive!

The current nature of this on-going Uranus/Pluto square is akin to having teeth extracted without anaesthetic. I know… horrible image, way too visceral for nice, spiritual people and not that pleasant for the rest of us! It’s just that to write with any honesty about this cosmic event, exact today, visceral is going to have to be where it’s at, because this is no walk in the park (unless you’re being chased by a man with a chainsaw that is) and it’s certainly no vacation (unless it’s, you know… at the Bates Motel…). Okay, so I’m guessing you’re getting my drift here, and it’s not just that I’ve been watching too many slasher films in my spare time. This square contains a whole load of very powerful, desperately pent-up energy and if we want to work with that energy in a constructive way we’re going to have to embrace the darker side of our psyche, the unappealing aspects of life and the repressed energy which fuels us from the shadows and distorts much of who we are and what we do.

This is no astrological alignment for the faint hearted, except there is no opt out clause so we’re all in the firing line anyway, faint hearted or not. This square comes to shake us awake to the consequences of past choices, actions and behaviours. It has powerful karmic overtones and reveals the dark under-belly of the current ‘spiritual’ landscape in which so many live these days. It poses the question: what do you deny and how do you do it? And with Venus, Jupiter and even Neptune set adrift from their cosmic companions, there are few places we can turn to for comfort or refuge at this time. All we can do is look in the cosmic mirror and recognise that what we criticise in others is within us. What we think makes us special doesn’t and however ‘spiritual’ we think we are, in the moment we think it, we’re not. This square asks us ‘Who do you think you are?’, and whatever we try to answer interrupts our response with a scornful laugh that lays bare our best attempts to defend our position and claim some dignity for ourselves.

Okay, if you’re still reading after all that, let me assure you that there is a way through all this. Life goes on after this square and there’s plenty of opportunity to come out the other side intact and, dare I say it, even better off for the experience. But to reap its rewards we really are going to have to face up to what and who we are, who we have been and what that means for us here and now today. Deciding to walk a ‘spiritual’ path doesn’t release us from the consequences of who we have been, as if somehow, now we see things differently, we can just pass ourselves off as a new person. Quite the contrary, in fact. Taking responsibility for our lives and our contribution to the collective consciousness from here on in necessitates owning who we were and what we may have contributed to it in the past. And in owning it we have a responsibility to address its impact and recognise how our past choices have impacted not only ourselves but the wider whole.

With Uranus under enormous pressure at this time we may well feel like an explosion waiting to happen, a lifetime of frustration concentrated into this tiny body of flesh, blood and bone. But this energy coursing through the universe now comes with an instruction manual if we’ll take a moment to read it. The manual exists in our heart, written in the handwriting of our higher self which knows that nothing ever happens in our life in contradiction of who we are. However we experience this moment is born of all that we are, all that we have been and all that we can be. It doesn’t descend upon us out of the blue but grows up out of us with every breath, every thought, every word and deed that we have contributed to the world around us and beyond. This energy flooding the planet now, filling you and me and everyone, is who we are at our very core. It is the life force that we have resisted for so long. It is God/dess, the Divine, the Universe, Chi.. call it what you will, it is what we are made of and it wants us back!

There are few notions that can survive intact at times like this. Whatever labels we identify with will be ripped away. We must surrender to be born anew, as a more immediate and vibrant expression of life. Life just is. It doesn’t call itself anything. Nor does it pretend to be what it isn’t. And it is life which wraps itself around us now, urging us to do the same: release who we think we are and what we want to be, and just be what we are – alive. But this time be it fully, and then see what happens….

Here’s to the power of the cosmos coursing through our veins…

Sarah Varcas


Anni 1st November 2013 8:33 am

Dear God Almighty.. this is SO TRUE. I feel like I am imploding and exploding... and I feel so terribly afraid. Welcome to the dark side is right! Though welcoming it most certainly does not feel. Yes.. All I have done, all I have been..comes lashing into my consciousness..wave after wave. What do I do?? Just stand here and take it?? Say sorry?? Because I am. But I don't know if sorry is enough.. Does anyone feel the same?? I just do not know what to do...

awalton 1st November 2013 9:58 am

Im sorry but Muther Trucker!!

I have spent my life unhappy. I have worked hard to change things and have changed many but again feel stuck for the past couple of years. Last night I felt like I was back in the deepest part of it. Like there was no way out and It will only lead back here until I leave, and I want to leave but know it isn't fair to my children, or is it given the example of internal prison I may give them for the rest of their lives. I've spent my life hearing about love and light and joy and I have believed but I am tired and I have lost faith. I realize I am my own prisoner but I don't know how to get out and I am tired of hearing that I agreed to this. Guess what, F the agreement! Take me to court.

Anni 1st November 2013 10:40 am

Awaton... I hear you! I am hanging on for dear life for the sake of my children to avoid having them suffer for the 'mistakes' I have made and I am also so tired of hearing I agreed to this too when I never set out consciously to make this mess. this pain, in the first place.. If there is any consolation in all of this, it is that we are not alone..And yes! F the agreement!! I want a lawyer!!! I rest my case.. (PS for what it's worth.. you made me laugh :thumbs: )

kay 1st November 2013 11:24 am

Dear Sarah, your humor and brilliant insight continue to inspire me. As someone wrote a few days ago, thank you for blossoming here and now amongst us.

Peter fox 1st November 2013 1:51 pm

Agree with Kay. Thanks,as always,Sarah.

Naybird 1st November 2013 2:20 pm

I have been going through this experience for a little over a month. It is my nature to see the pleasant and close my eyes and mind to the unpleasant. Well "life" is presenting the unpleasant and at first I didn't like it and it was scary. I was tired of running from it. Tired enough to turn around and use every tool I have and ask for help and guidance. I sense that the dark side is apart of me, I am feeling love and compassion for past lives and current life experiences that desperately are in need of love. Love will heal this darkness, fear will feed it.
Budda sat under a tree and faced all sorts of demons without passing judgment regardless of how scary they appeared.
In the Course in Miracles it states we are all innocent.
Facing the shadow side brings freedom and a deep realization that LOVE is who we really are. It hurts, it is personal, but it is worth it!!!!

CD 1st November 2013 2:52 pm

Sarah, I just joined the list today so that I could personally tell you that your reports are the BEST (and by the way, the only ones I read on Spirit LIbrary) Thank you for your wisdom and your ability to describe so precisely what we are going through. I have uranus conjunct my sun, and it's a trip! My emotional body has been all over the place lately, and so have all my friends. Everyone's feeling it. I have done a LOT of emotional processing, but nothing seems to be able to handle the intensity of these times. Meanwhile I see from your profile that you are located in the UK, I toured there extensively several years ago and offered healing concerts and healing workshops thru sound and intention. I loved England and loved the people there. I will share that my spiritual master from India, a very great man and saint, once answered a question someone asked him about this time. He responded "I would not want to be alive at that time." Jeez.... sigh! thanks again for your penetrating wisdom and counsel.

omitunde 1st November 2013 4:18 pm

....I thought it was just an anxiety episode so I made myself sit still, get more rest, meditate longer, commit to mindful exercise.....and the fear just hangs on like it is fixed to me with duct tape...and you know how messy duct tape can be. It can be removed but always leaves something behind.

Mik 1st November 2013 5:42 pm

Thank you Sarah,,,
Intense,with no pretense,,hence,dense.
I call it the squeeze,,,seems heavier at night.
My only refuge is in benevolence and love,with as much laughter as my stomach can take,,if i can remember while the squeeze is on,haha
I have been squeezed so much over the last 6 months,,there's nothing left in the tube,almost.
Stay in your heart rainbow warriors, and love on.

Emma852013 2nd November 2013 5:35 am

Thank you Sarah!

I knew it! This is exactly the energy that I went through, I didnt resist it though and instead I let it flow through me and it brought up anger, anger for not standing up for myself in a relationship in the past (although I actually have done that a lot this year). To see myself not as a woman but as an equal, and just as powerful spiritual being as any man. As I did this energy lost its grip over me and it lasted for a few hours (and I feared that it would last for the whole day) You put it so beautifully "Life just is. It doesn’t call itself anything. Nor does it pretend to be what it isn’t." This was the exact experience.
Your accuracy is as always impeccable
Much love and many warm and heartfelt thank you! For sharing :smitten:

spiritheart7 3rd November 2013 4:10 pm

Sarah, thank you for your words that strike to the heart of the matter. Dealing with denial and projections are not fun, and basically lie at the core of many addictions. I myself see working a 12 step program (OA) as perfect for the energies we are currently experiencing. The solar eclipse today conjuncts my mid heaven (I have not worked since February) and Pluto sits on my 12 degree Capricorn Ascendant, squaring Uranus (I have a cardinal t-square that is activated by the Pluto/Uranus square). I have been extremely concerned about environmental events, such as Fukushima currently spewing billions of gallons daily of radioactive waste (talk about Pluto!) into the entire Pacific Ocean area, not to mention Nibiru exerting its magnetic field upon us (which caused the Japanese earthquake in the first place). Let's just say I feel the life and death scenario playing out daily for me in excruciating fashion. I want to clean myself up and get ready for God - to do this, I have to look at my character defects, and be willing to have them removed. :roll: God bless, Susannah