A New Day

I woke up quite early this morning. I took my dogs out for a walk and felt a gentle breeze in the air. The same breeze I felt last night while I walked them by moonlight. The wind whispers to me of new beginnings. Oh yes! I am so ready for new things to come! The past year has been filled with so much loss. Loss of life. Loss of hope and trust. Loss of friendship. Loss of inspiration, motivation, and at many times loss of my sanity! Within all the loss there have been many blessings as well. I have grown stronger and more self-sufficient. I’ve found where my true nourishment lies. I’ve learned to take better care of myself and let go of what no longer serves me.

It’s been a never-ending process of letting go. Letting go of belongings that I don’t need, use, or want. Letting go of thoughts, beliefs, and ideas that no longer resonate within me, which are bringing me down, and holding me back from moving forward. Letting go of patterns created in relationships that I care never to repeat again! Letting go of long suffering emotions that I have held on to, which in fact, I don’t even remember the source from which they generated!

This morning I opened up all my sliding glass doors and swept the patios. I let in the fresh air and swept out all the cobwebs. My cats and dogs took in the surroundings and the sweet breeze with joy. I looked around outside through their eyes and I saw all the wonder. Good morning new day! Good day new life! Each one is a chance to begin anew. Through it all we arise each day and discover the blessings waiting for us.

Yes, this time has been quite difficult for many of us. We are being challenged and pushed to the limit. We are being pushed to simplify our lives and find new ways of doing things. The old ways no longer serve us. There is simply no way of continuing to do things the way we have done them in the past without suffering.

I have had a lot of financial issues. I was in a lot of debt. I raised my son as a single parent and just charged a lot of things I couldn’t afford just to get by. This past year I went through bankruptcy. It was a relief to release the burden I was carrying. I could no longer juggle the payments to stay afloat. With that I am in the process of doing a loan modification on my villa. Its taken over a year and it has been extremely difficult to complete this process with the bank. Its still not over and I have to keep my thoughts positive. My frustration level rises as money is very tight and I get really worried about making ends meet.

I found myself thinking what’s the point of living. This world is so dense and difficult perhaps I don’t even belong here. Wouldn’t you know my yearly mammogram came back with a dark patch. The breasts are the source of nurturing, which didn’t go unnoticed by me that this is the area in which I am struggling with. I know I do not get enough nurturing and this where I manifested imbalance. I had to go for a sonogram to confirm the findings and now I’m going for an MRI. It was a huge wake up call for me. I do believe everything will be okay. I immediately had to change the message I keep telling myself about not wanting to live. I had to shift the belief I had created.

We are powerful creators. We create far more than we give ourselves credit for. I feel like it’s a cosmic joke. I am able to create this inside of my body, yet I can’t get the daggone loan modification completed already! The message I keep receiving is that all is in divine timing. We do not see the big picture. We don’t know what is going on behind the scenes to align what is necessary for our lives. We need to stay positive, centered, and balanced in order to be in the divine flow.

For today I am able to pay my bills, although with very little left over. Yes, I have had to cut back quite a bit. I do far less than I would like to do, but I also really enjoy what I do do. I am a simple person and find enjoyment doing the little things. It really doesn’t take a lot to entertain me nowadays. All in all I am happy and content. The only time I get bent out of shape is when I look at my checking account and start worrying about how I’m going to pay the next set of bills. The bills in front of me always somehow get miraculously paid. The money is always there when I need it. Sometimes it shows up at the last second. Which always peeves me why we have to wait til the last second to get our miracle! This is also about changing my perceptions about money, worth, and abundance.

So many of us are going through challenges. The guidance I receive is as we stay in the present moment and really focus on our blessings the more they will multiply. We need to release our attachment to how we think things are supposed to be. If we can distance ourselves from the problem we give space for the solution to unfurl. Avoid focusing on the issues and spiraling into a negative pattern. While we cannot ignore them, we do what needs to be done in the moment to assist the situation, but then occupying ourselves with things that uplift us the rest of the time.

Prayer

Dear God,

Thank you for many blessings. I am infinitely grateful for all that I have in my life. Today I give my worries to you. I know things are manifesting as they are intended. My focus is on creating the life I dream of. Guide me in the right direction please. I create with a light heart and a happy spirit. I release my attachment to making things happen in a certain way. I am open to the infinite possibilities!

And so it is.

Amen.

Comments

kay 21st September 2010 8:21 am

Thank you, Stefanie, for sharing your story with us, and for all the ways you share your Self.

poetic555 21st September 2010 9:32 am

Stephanie you won't believe this, but when I woke up this morning I felt exactly the same thing, New Day! I feel like it's a time of new beginnings and we have the power to create for ourselves whatever we want and the Universe will back us up. Wow, this is an affirmation for me. Just figure out what you want and take the first step! Thanks for your message it inspired me. Now I have to find a way to create what I want. :)

Tzaddi 21st September 2010 9:49 am

Thank you, Stephanie, for sharing your experience. It's reassuring to remember that I am not alone. Thank you, too, for your uplifting words. I came here for both and got what I needed. Many blessings, girl!

Ron Laswell 21st September 2010 10:01 am

I am such a wimp that when I read stories like yours, it actually makes me cry. But it made me realize, when your story tugs at my heart, I need to let those lines of energy extend out for your healing - and mine. We may be separated by thousands of miles, but my heart says you are right here, right now. Blessings to you, Stefanie.

In my birthchart, my Moon is located at the 1st degree of Libra, and I, too, have been going through some excruciatingly painful situations involving my relationships with others. In spite of it, I am looking forward to this week of intensely personal astrological energies with great expectations. Even at my part-time corporate job, I am extremely tempted to inform them that I cannot work for them any longer. I don't know how what I want to be is going to get me where I want to go, but I know that it would be infinitely better than dealing with the corporate BS any longer. Good luck to anyone else out there going through the same stuff. Blessings to all.

dsingh 21st September 2010 10:03 am

This is such an inspiring and moving expression on handling challenges and crises that many of us are facing now. Stephanie has eloquently reminded us of how transforming these experiences can be. Thank you!

Vicki M. 21st September 2010 10:16 am

Dear Stefanie, Thank you for sharing, I have felt the same way. I do my best to keep positive, but find the financial problems overwhelming at times. Meditation and yoga and walks in nature have helped me so much to stay centered. The words that keep coming to me are, surrender, surrender, surrender! My current mantra is: I AM Light, I AM Love, I AM Peace, I AM Joy, I AM Abundant Health and Prosperity !
Many Blessings,
Victoria

lgm214 21st September 2010 1:15 pm

Dear Stephanie- I totally relate to everything you said including feeling like life may be too difficult on this planet. If is strange to feel such despair and intense gratitude simultaneously. I've felt pretty insane at times-but also know that I'm not crazy - I just haven't been able to explain or change things.

It is only of late that I've started to find others who feel the same way. This is a huge relief. Thank you so much for sharing and giving hope to those who are struggling. Eternal love. ?

Vish 21st September 2010 2:26 pm

Thank you stephanie for sharing your situation, when i was reading it I was relating to it in some ways and wanted to send blessings and my prayers of abundance to you and myself and the people that are in challenging situations.

k 21st September 2010 4:32 pm

At times when I have dealt with the fear of not having enough, I think of what I would do in the worst case situation. Joining a convent is not an option becasue I am not Catholic, but there are other religions that have places where people are able to live a life of devotion. There are homeless shelters. The fear is from losing a way of living that I am attached to. The influence of the Buddhist teachings causes me to think that, in the process of true surrender a person gives up attachemnts to the things of this world and devotes their thoughts and concerns to the creation of a better world. The Buddha did not have possessions except what he wore and a bowl to beg for food. Jesus, traveled and was taken care of by people he encountered on his journeys. These two icons did not worry about maintaining a certain standard of living, they turned their thoughts and actions toward a higher purpose.

Melanie 21st September 2010 7:35 pm

I hear ya. Thank you for your openness. Wishing you lots of love, light, well-being and prosperity. Love Melanie

Elaine Edwards 21st September 2010 9:26 pm

such a familiar story...loss...finances, struggles with the welfare system for me as i have health conditions that keep me home alone a lot, in that time I have done a lot of work on my emotional body. I was declared fit for work in June. I was getting closer but I am still trying to build my strength up and have more things to work through. Including my fear of being dependant and asking for help!

I found a lump in my breast less than two weeks later, it was a cyst and was drained last month, within 2 weeks it was large again. Nurturing, makes a lot of sense...

anje 23rd September 2010 1:32 am

The miracle is never going to come but at the last second! It will always be this way and the miracle is that it always does happen, the abundance is always there and we are always channeled and supported into exactly the right place at the right time. That happens even if we hold negative thoughts or do anything else that's considered sabotage. The Universe doesn't care, it simply fuels us along on our chosen path that we really don't remember too well, most of the time. If we did, the word miracle wouldn't be at all necessary.
Financial difficulty is not about financial difficulty at all but about changing our perception of just what we need or don't need. Of course we don't need anything at all, since whatever our chosen path has in store for us, will simply show up. Easy and most miraculous, if you want to see it that way!

angelika 23rd September 2010 8:55 am

Thanks Stefanie & all of you lovely readers leaving comments : )

Life's been such a 'bit of a challenge' for so loooong, somehow never ending but with just enough changes in myself, a tiny bit more confidence to get me through to the next round. Last week I'd reached a point were I so desperately wanted positive change that I wholeheartedly focused on all the things that weren't working. Guess, what - of course it came back hitting me in the back-side. Ahhhh.
"Avoid focusing on the issues and spiraling into a negative pattern".

The message I got was to 'not do anything for now, things will fall into place'. It's a like getting the money to pay the bills - just in time. I'm sooo jolly good at creating crappy stuff with next to no time delay, so why is it so hard to create the good stuff, like harmony, money etc?
So now I'm back to practising patience.
Love & Blessings, Angelika

vanessaj 23rd September 2010 11:55 am

I too can relate. Last year i was in a similar place, with enough to just pay the bills, and not knowing where the money for next month's bills was coming. I was paying all the bills one month behind, etc. What got me out of that was really learning about the law of attraction and putting it to work for me. I monitored my thoughts and realized how much time i was spending on thoughts of lack, managing my lack, and expecting more lack! Its not easy but greater abundance comes when we shift our thoughts and start focusing on what is good in our lives right now, being grateful for what we have right now and not worrying about next month! That will just recreate the lack you are experiencing now next month!! I am not yet at my goal of abundance but i am no longer behind, i have money in the bank to last a few months, and I credit it to my change in thoughts and attitude thanks to the teachings of Abraham/ Esther & Jerry Hicks. We are all masters & we create our own reality. I am seeing us all in abundance. Luv & light!!

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Stefanie Miller - A Magical World

Stefanie Miller is a teacher, energy healer, spiritual counselor and an intuitive, channeled writer. She holds a Bachelor's degree in Education and has taught elementary school for over 16 years. Stefanie has been assisting individuals on their spiritual path since 1998.  Facilitating private healing sessions, workshops and through her channeled writing, Stefanie guides individuals toward achieving self mastery by connecting with their Higher Self and Source through a heart centered focus.

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