Vulnerability

I took my dogs for a walk tonight right around dusk. I was so fortunate to witness in the night sky the crescent moon (which is my mom’s favorite) with the planet of love, Venus, just above it. It was such a spectacular site, which warmed my heart! It made me feel hopeful to witness such beauty.

I must honestly admit that this week has taken its toll on me. I am so exhausted and depleted from everything that has been happening in my life and to the people I care about that I feel as if I have been hit by a bulldozer! It's not that a lot of things necessarily happened THIS week, but it has been a combination of a lot of little things piling up one on top of the other over the past couple of months, until it feels as if a boulder landed directly on top of me! It seems as if I am juggling a lot of balls in the air and I wonder how long I can keep them all going at the same time.

The mass consciousness is in such a state of confusion and upheaval. I feel as if we are all going through such major shifts at once. Not all of our situations can be labeled good or bad, although I think we tend to want to judge them! We are weeding through and sorting out so many aspects of our lives. I wake up at night halfway through a thought. I have to convince myself to let it go so that I can fall back asleep and not become overloaded with processing things during the day. I feel as if I am walking in a fog. I have made some major blunders because I can't seem to focus. The energies are so intense right now that it takes a lot of effort to figure out my priorities and accomplish much of anything.

I feel as if so much has been excavated and processed that we are at a stage of pure vulnerability. I liken myself to a tender, helpless baby. I am anything but helpless but at this stage I feel as if I am retreating into a womb-like state. I yearn to be the baby bundled up in a warm, cozy blanket and tucked into adoring parents' loving arms. I wish to be cradled, comforted and nurtured. I cuddle up in bed, with my dogs nearby, and form this protective cocoon to shield my sensitive self from the harsh energies we are experiencing.

I was driving in my car today listening to the song "Age of Aquarius" from my HAIR Musical itunes. I was singing and dancing away as I was stopped at a red light. My friend was in the car behind me laughing hysterically as she witnessed my display. I see myself as the embodiment of the flower child of the 70's, barefoot, in a long flowing dress with flowers in her hair rallying for peace, love and harmony. I dream of a utopian world where all of our needs are met, as we work together to help one another to lighten our load and make things easier for each other. I gaze through my heart at the dawning of the Age of Aquarius, where I believe peace will guide the planet and love will steer the stars.

I hold the vision of a world that is gentle and kind, filled with harmony and understanding. My heart aches seeing so much pain, frustration, sadness, fear and confusion going on around and within us. There are so many of us experiencing tough times. I wish that I could sweep it all away and bring peace, love and happiness for us all. I truly yearn for this and I nurture this creation deep within my heart.

We are at the stage where all of our defense mechanisms and ego based thinking and living is being stripped from us. We are at a phase where we must be almost defeated in order for us to let go of the old ways of doing things. We refused to make changes in our lives until we are at a point that we are not given a choice other than to change. We might not realize it, but we are at the sweet stage of surrender. In order for us to find contentment and live authentic lives we need to find a way to live in a much more simplistic way. We've complicated things to our own demise. Our system is crumbling and we are going down with it. This is not necessarily a bad thing, although it seems so right now. I truly believe that we will rebuild our lives and society with a much more solid foundation.

The message we are getting is its time to do things differently. We must take care of ourselves; tend to our physical and emotional needs, and well being. We can find ways to do with less "stuff" and enjoy the little things more. We need to find ways to preserve our planet, go green, conserve, re-use and recycle. It's time that we live with conscious awareness and mindfulness.

As we simplify our lives we will be carrying less of a burden. Right now we are in the process of releasing all the layers of our suffering. We created so many things in our lives and society, which has kept us so busy maintaining, juggling, and tending to, it only distracted us from enjoying ourselves and being at peace. We can experience love and happiness once we let go of all the things that are inhibiting and holding us back. We need to have the strength to persevere a little longer. We are at the core of our being. If we turn back now from facing our shadow side we will never get to the other side where the good stuff resides. It's worth the effort of the journey when in the end we get to sit back, enjoy, and smell the flowers.

Prayer

Dear God,

I have so many things going on in my life right now that I feel overwhelmed and frustrated. I feel like a failure sometimes because things don't seem to be the way I would want them to be. I have challenges that I'm not sure how to resolve. I feel so vulnerable, weak, and fragile right now. I can't see my way through these difficulties.

I ask for your loving presence to guide me in releasing and healing the areas of my life that are not working.

I honor all of my accomplishments and how far I've come. Show me how to take better care of myself.

I am open to receiving what I need.

I am grateful for the many blessings in my life. Thank you for guidance and protection.

 

And so it is.

Amen.

Comments

Rhiannon 28th February 2009 11:26 am

Thanks again, Stephanie! I recently posted the video from Utube on my facebook from the musical Hair, featuring "The Age of Aquarius"...and I listen to it often. Now, I can think of you, dancing away in your car ( I dance in my painting studio to it). So cool. Yes, indeed, quite an intense week, in every direction, in every arena. Your posts help in understanding what I am going through, too. :smitten:

Polly McLeod 28th February 2009 11:30 am

Me three, all of it - including the crescent moon and Venus and the dogs and blankets and singin' the Age of Aquarius. Polly, Vancouver

k 28th February 2009 12:57 pm

Interesting that others are having the same things going on. Hummm....Last night when I was going off to sleep I was wondering if there is actually an evil being hanging around causeing me to encounter events that hurt. Mr Walsh's message today is good and pertains to us facing this period. I think as Lightworkers it is up to us to change our perception of "bad" events. We have to focus on the light, bring joy and happiness into the world, overcome the emotions of despair, change our perception as this is an illusion. It is through our joy that the positive changes in the world will come about. We have to be strong and shine our light into the darkness and we can only do this if we replace the negative emotions with love and joy, as hard as it is, we must. Watch a fairy tale and enjoy being a child again.

Rob 28th February 2009 6:32 pm

Baby steps, helps to pull back into a safe/secure space, where we can just breathe and watch the sky shift above us.

I myself, am feeling like a new born also, although i also feel we are, at least i feel like i am being asked to parent myself.

Feeling the harshness around me too, isnt easy to deal with, not just due to being sensitive, but also feeling like my skin is being stripped away ( Probably barriers ive created through fear of what MAY happen ), so it takes alot of strength to walk through this while i know we will emerge stronger, more confident and wiser for these expereinces.

As for the system, let it go, personaly im tierd of a system that is based on fear, greed etc, while everybody gets theirs at the expense of whoever happens to be standing in thier way.

Time for a system built on love and peace and respect, while one system falls away, another system ( Heartfelt ) is slowly and gradualy coming into play, which is where we come in, as these energies are coming in through us, to be grounded through our focus and natural sense of just being who we are

Annamarie DeSanto 28th February 2009 6:53 pm

I felt like I just read my diary for the past week. Even down to the "Age of Aquarius" in the car. I did that too.
Last week was so great I felt such pure energy I felt it deep in my heart. But this week is something else. I feel lost again. Everything you just said.
Well at least I know I'm not alone.
thank you for the post. It helps to know someone else is in this too.

kay 28th February 2009 7:59 pm

Yes, I breathed a deep sigh of relief when I read your article today. This past year has been absolutely brutal for me, but the last few weeks have been crushing. Somehow, it feels better knowing we are not alone in this. I have read many things about how we lightworkers are holding the light for others for so long and how the lower vibrations are so effecting of us right now. Its comforting, but it doesn't change feeling like we are buried alive and screaming!

your prayer helped. Your sentiment helped. Thanks for writing it all down so we can all see we are not ALONE. We have been promised paradise at the other side of this. That, cannot come soon enough now.

ascended1.2012 1st March 2009 4:37 am

Well I don't specifically feel that vulnerable too often))))) Plus It's SpringTime!!! =)safe

majicamelman 3rd March 2009 4:32 am

Thats better, people can put thier energies into where youre at, not where youve been

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Stefanie Miller is a teacher, energy healer, spiritual counselor and an intuitive, channeled writer. She holds a Bachelor's degree in Education and has taught elementary school for over 16 years. Stefanie has been assisting individuals on their spiritual path since 1998.  Facilitating private healing sessions, workshops and through her channeled writing, Stefanie guides individuals toward achieving self mastery by connecting with their Higher Self and Source through a heart centered focus.

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